*I never known what you speak of
I've not obtained
what it is to sustain
a meaningful relationship
Seems I'm destiny to be alone forever
I've not grasped what it is to allow someone
to just be who they are
all I can see is my own imperfection in them
wanting them to be better
and
throw a fit when their so inadequate
more so
I'm the one whose lacking
and
fear changing
just in case they wont approve
I don't ask for validation
since
I validate myself
Isn't it still important
if we're reflections
of
our love and relationship?*
*I've not yet understood this concept
since
I'm so used to doing it always on my own
with or with you.
More so with out then with...
Few have tried to show me
teach me
yet I've ran fearful of what COULD be
TOO scared afraid
I just cant be hurt again
but no one understand that
Closed off from love so long
I've forgotten what its like
and
when I've had it
I've not known if it were real or fake.
Too many times
I've been lead to believe in the illusion
of love when it wasn't even true
How do you condemn me
when
you've participated
in my demise to began with?*
***He told me we'd never part.
He too told me I was his heart.
This one said I was his only.
Another said he'd never leave me lonely!!!***
* Yet they've all left
weather I made it so or on their own
Too many times
I listen to a lie
yet I'm to blame
Somehow unbeknownst to me
its all ALWAYS my fault.
Til death do us part
was me dying each time he cheated
or how about them beating
I should stop blaming
and
take responsibilities for myself
for my actions
it's always someone else's fault
that
I'm how I am
but truth is it really has been
yet at my age shouldn't
I have to face facts....
I need to love me
give to me all they're unfulfilled promise's
left me longing craving needing and wanting.*
***Fix my own broken soul
I want to
I don't even know how
I lack the ability to move on
past the hurt
which consumes me
and yet
I want a
Meaningful Relationship***
Always Me Ayeshah ™ ®
K.A.C.L.N ©
All right reserved ®
Copyright 1977 - Present
Nov 25, 2015
Nov 25, 2015 at 3:22 AM UTC
*I never known what you speak of
I've not obtained
what it is to sustain
a meaningful relationship
Seems I'm destiny to be alone forever
I've not grasped what it is to allow someone
to just be who they are
all I can see is my own imperfection in them
wanting them to be better
and
throw a fit when their so inadequate
more so
I'm the one whose lacking
and
fear changing
just in case they wont approve
I don't ask for validation
since
I validate myself
Isn't it still important
if we're reflections
of
our love and relationship?*
*I've not yet understood this concept
since
I'm so used to doing it always on my own
with or with you.
More so with out then with...
Few have tried to show me
teach me
yet I've ran fearful of what COULD be
TOO scared afraid
I just cant be hurt again
but no one understand that
Closed off from love so long
I've forgotten what its like
and
when I've had it
I've not known if it were real or fake.
Too many times
I've been lead to believe in the illusion
of love when it wasn't even true
How do you condemn me
when
you've participated
in my demise to began with?*
***He told me we'd never part.
He too told me I was his heart.
This one said I was his only.
Another said he'd never leave me lonely!!!***
* Yet they've all left
weather I made it so or on their own
Too many times
I listen to a lie
yet I'm to blame
Somehow unbeknownst to me
its all ALWAYS my fault.
Til death do us part
was me dying each time he cheated
or how about them beating
I should stop blaming
and
take responsibilities for myself
for my actions
it's always someone else's fault
that
I'm how I am
but truth is it really has been
yet at my age shouldn't
I have to face facts....
I need to love me
give to me all they're unfulfilled promise's
left me longing craving needing and wanting.*
***Fix my own broken soul
I want to
I don't even know how
I lack the ability to move on
past the hurt
which consumes me
and yet
I want a
Meaningful Relationship***
Always Me Ayeshah ™ ®
K.A.C.L.N ©
All right reserved ®
Copyright 1977 - Present
I'm 38 and still can't seem to get this love thing right, best I stay alone! maybe but I wish pray and hope there is someone for me, seems for my exes they've found true love so *** is wrong with me>???!!! guess I'll figure it out one day before I'm gone. or iI'l go without ever knowing !
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