I can feel my heart shatter
When u act like nothing happened
Whenever it really does matter
Y turn your back on me now
When u said u felt that way
Just go as I get a towel
To wipe my face from the tears
As u laugh away with your peers
And I am here with all these fears
I told you all of these little things
But yet it didn't stop this pain
I am here wishing for fangs
To rip my heart out of my chest
As I am here choking the sobs away
I just wanted love but I failed this test
Now u see me here alone, quiet
But u save your breath with me
But I for one am not defiant
I stay away like you said
But I can't help but long for you
When I apparently misread
All those messages keep going on in my head
But I save them to myself
Until I am dead
Now I push people away
Cuz I'm too afraid of getting hurt
But it doesn't matter now, okay
I choose to either trust or not
But I choose not cuz of the mishaps
But it's not like I fought
For the chance to find out why
I couldn't understand your lies
But now I have to lie
To others who ask what's the matter
Cuz u were too embarrassed by the truth
But u ended our chatter
And I just sit here dumbfounded
By what u said to all those people
For which I thought we were bounded
Cuz of the way we talked to each other
So I was all happy for no reason
But why do I even bother
When I can just fall to the ground
But I have to try and empty my thoughts
Of you Cuz I need to go around
But I can't since u stand in my way
I can't say to others what happened
Since I am not okay
Oct 15, 2015
Oct 15, 2015 at 4:30 PM UTC
I can feel my heart shatter
When u act like nothing happened
Whenever it really does matter
Y turn your back on me now
When u said u felt that way
Just go as I get a towel
To wipe my face from the tears
As u laugh away with your peers
And I am here with all these fears
I told you all of these little things
But yet it didn't stop this pain
I am here wishing for fangs
To rip my heart out of my chest
As I am here choking the sobs away
I just wanted love but I failed this test
Now u see me here alone, quiet
But u save your breath with me
But I for one am not defiant
I stay away like you said
But I can't help but long for you
When I apparently misread
All those messages keep going on in my head
But I save them to myself
Until I am dead
Now I push people away
Cuz I'm too afraid of getting hurt
But it doesn't matter now, okay
I choose to either trust or not
But I choose not cuz of the mishaps
But it's not like I fought
For the chance to find out why
I couldn't understand your lies
But now I have to lie
To others who ask what's the matter
Cuz u were too embarrassed by the truth
But u ended our chatter
And I just sit here dumbfounded
By what u said to all those people
For which I thought we were bounded
Cuz of the way we talked to each other
So I was all happy for no reason
But why do I even bother
When I can just fall to the ground
But I have to try and empty my thoughts
Of you Cuz I need to go around
But I can't since u stand in my way
I can't say to others what happened
Since I am not okay
© Camron Elliott 2015
