Are these the arms that
So carefully enveloped
My small, sinking shoulders?
My legs must be soldiers
To keep moving
Though my bones are lead
And the pain in my head
Echoes through every cell
That composes this broken body—
This body that is dead.
This body that is not mine.
I am a stranger.
(Madeline
Am I in love?
It's not like they said it would be)
They say it is
What we are made to find,
The reason for human existence.
Is not everything we do
Driven by the mad desire
To feel cared for?
We're chasing a delusion:
Something people tell themselves
To help them fall asleep at night.
We live on children's bedtime stories,
Though we were never children.
Maybe one day we will be
After learning to cry more softly
As not to be made vulnerable
To those who do not wish to hear it,
After learning to stifle those tears
After the nightmares
And the panic attacks,
(Madeline
Find me—
I have lost myself again
But you seem to know me)
When my world comes crashing down
And my shattered limbs frame
My unevenly bruised skin.
(Madeline
Will you hold me again?
I feel much stronger
When you are here with me)
(I've never
Wanted to forget anything more
Than I've wanted to forget myself)
I never knew that the drug
I would become addicted to
Would not be painkiller,
Nor antidepressants.
(I never knew
It would have soft
Pale skin and clear
Bright eyes and a
Warmth that permeates even my
Fossilized heart)
Sep 24, 2015
Sep 24, 2015 at 9:25 PM UTC
Are these the arms that
So carefully enveloped
My small, sinking shoulders?
My legs must be soldiers
To keep moving
Though my bones are lead
And the pain in my head
Echoes through every cell
That composes this broken body—
This body that is dead.
This body that is not mine.
I am a stranger.
(Madeline
Am I in love?
It's not like they said it would be)
They say it is
What we are made to find,
The reason for human existence.
Is not everything we do
Driven by the mad desire
To feel cared for?
We're chasing a delusion:
Something people tell themselves
To help them fall asleep at night.
We live on children's bedtime stories,
Though we were never children.
Maybe one day we will be
After learning to cry more softly
As not to be made vulnerable
To those who do not wish to hear it,
After learning to stifle those tears
After the nightmares
And the panic attacks,
(Madeline
Find me—
I have lost myself again
But you seem to know me)
When my world comes crashing down
And my shattered limbs frame
My unevenly bruised skin.
(Madeline
Will you hold me again?
I feel much stronger
When you are here with me)
(I've never
Wanted to forget anything more
Than I've wanted to forget myself)
I never knew that the drug
I would become addicted to
Would not be painkiller,
Nor antidepressants.
(I never knew
It would have soft
Pale skin and clear
Bright eyes and a
Warmth that permeates even my
Fossilized heart)
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