I apologize for seeming so weird
Its just that fate has always showed me exactly I feared
If you thought that I enjoyed or reveled in the oddities
You’d be wrong, I’ve always envied the wannabees
Its the price I pay for being aware
I never cared to know this much about the truth, I deem it unfair
I feel like I’ve always wanted love
But as much as I’ve desired its not something I was made of
My life has been nothing on this side of typical
Growin up I felt my beliefs to be unsinkable
Then she broke all my understanding of reality
Mom showed me life was anything you wanted it to be
And I don’t know if that was for good or bad
I started pushing the envelope just to see what I really had
Could you love me if I really did this?
Probably but I would never tell you, keeping secrets balled inside my fists
They would only explode when they hit
But no one ever saw, I was my only friend when I had to get through the hell of it
Years have passed I may be getting over it
But I still feel as empty as the day I fell inside this ****
If my message couldn’t be anymore clear
I feel like its been a mistake since the day I got here
And I can’t emphasize how much I die every time I go to a lifeless job that leaves us more blind
I see the soulless look inside your eyes and I wonder if you could pinpoint which moment in your life you died
I’m not saying that I’m perfect in any shape or form
I often wish God wouldn’t have wasted this life on someone so **** to under preform
I don’t know what it is I’m living for
The jist of what I’m meaning is there has to be so much more
We have to believe that what we do matters
Because if it had no meaning we’d just be a bunch of unpaid actors
Going through the day to day, trying to grab as much pleasure that comes your way
And I feel sorry for those who think that’s what its about
Who feel that nothing happens when the light inside you goes out
And once again, I don’t pretend to know it all
But I know this much, there’s a lot of undiscovered life inside of ya’ll.
Oct 22, 2011
Oct 22, 2011 at 2:31 PM UTC
I apologize for seeming so weird
Its just that fate has always showed me exactly I feared
If you thought that I enjoyed or reveled in the oddities
You’d be wrong, I’ve always envied the wannabees
Its the price I pay for being aware
I never cared to know this much about the truth, I deem it unfair
I feel like I’ve always wanted love
But as much as I’ve desired its not something I was made of
My life has been nothing on this side of typical
Growin up I felt my beliefs to be unsinkable
Then she broke all my understanding of reality
Mom showed me life was anything you wanted it to be
And I don’t know if that was for good or bad
I started pushing the envelope just to see what I really had
Could you love me if I really did this?
Probably but I would never tell you, keeping secrets balled inside my fists
They would only explode when they hit
But no one ever saw, I was my only friend when I had to get through the hell of it
Years have passed I may be getting over it
But I still feel as empty as the day I fell inside this ****
If my message couldn’t be anymore clear
I feel like its been a mistake since the day I got here
And I can’t emphasize how much I die every time I go to a lifeless job that leaves us more blind
I see the soulless look inside your eyes and I wonder if you could pinpoint which moment in your life you died
I’m not saying that I’m perfect in any shape or form
I often wish God wouldn’t have wasted this life on someone so **** to under preform
I don’t know what it is I’m living for
The jist of what I’m meaning is there has to be so much more
We have to believe that what we do matters
Because if it had no meaning we’d just be a bunch of unpaid actors
Going through the day to day, trying to grab as much pleasure that comes your way
And I feel sorry for those who think that’s what its about
Who feel that nothing happens when the light inside you goes out
And once again, I don’t pretend to know it all
But I know this much, there’s a lot of undiscovered life inside of ya’ll.
