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Last week if you asked me who I looked up to the most in the world, I would have told you my sister But I saw her eyes scan her body and watched the tears well up in her eyes as she would say "I just hate being alone" You don't get to pick your family so God surrounded me with the mentally unstable i joined the club, but it's okay i fit in well I told her she will not be alone forever but her stubborn nature will not allow that I see her pain and i watch her struggle Mom, Dad, Mom, Dad why does she resort to drugs i would ask? when i should have been asking what could be better this is a stage, this is a stage who am i looking up to anymore? she is who i vowed not to become i don't like her very much anymore every hug is accompanied by the smell of marijuana smoke and every car ride is accompanied by that stupid boy I am a year older now My eyes now scan my body and i ask, "Why am i alone?" "You're beautiful baby girl, don't let it get to your head" my mom would say and a day later, **** you, you can go live with your father" would come out of her beautiful mouth i once admired so deeply she is still beautiful she is so ugly I'm sorry Rachel I'm sorry will you come get me? I want to get away, too. I admire you again I understand your pain what kind of a ****** up situation is this?! WHAT DO I DO i will not do what you did, no i have learned a lot from you, sister and i will appreciate you for that forever always my role model My sister isn't very sad anymore I knew all along she was in a stage so i continued to love her like i should have She found love and love, he is and love her body, i do she does he does How did she do this for so long and stay so strong with nobody there to hold her hand, like i am privileged I will not do drugs, not very much anymore, at least the escape is amazing the high sends me away from the ******** so i will get away with you, sister because i understand you now i am 2 years older i may be sad i am sad but i have you always 2,000 miles away or 1 inch It scares me to think another human being can make your mind work backwards But I can never un-know the truths of my mother's past or un-see the scars of my sisters present So I sat there wondering when my time will come, wondering who will be the one to manipulate my mind to work backwards so I hope you can understand why sometimes I expect you to do your worst, while you continue to give me reasons to expect your best Because, sister, you are the best and do understand i can see that can you?
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Aug 9, 2015
Aug 9, 2015 at 12:45 PM UTC
For my sister
Last week if you asked me who I looked up to the most in the world, I would have told you my sister But I saw her eyes scan her body and watched the tears well up in her eyes as she would say "I just hate being alone" You don't get to pick your family so God surrounded me with the mentally unstable i joined the club, but it's okay i fit in well I told her she will not be alone forever but her stubborn nature will not allow that I see her pain and i watch her struggle Mom, Dad, Mom, Dad why does she resort to drugs i would ask? when i should have been asking what could be better this is a stage, this is a stage who am i looking up to anymore? she is who i vowed not to become i don't like her very much anymore every hug is accompanied by the smell of marijuana smoke and every car ride is accompanied by that stupid boy I am a year older now My eyes now scan my body and i ask, "Why am i alone?" "You're beautiful baby girl, don't let it get to your head" my mom would say and a day later, **** you, you can go live with your father" would come out of her beautiful mouth i once admired so deeply she is still beautiful she is so ugly I'm sorry Rachel I'm sorry will you come get me? I want to get away, too. I admire you again I understand your pain what kind of a ****** up situation is this?! WHAT DO I DO i will not do what you did, no i have learned a lot from you, sister and i will appreciate you for that forever always my role model My sister isn't very sad anymore I knew all along she was in a stage so i continued to love her like i should have She found love and love, he is and love her body, i do she does he does How did she do this for so long and stay so strong with nobody there to hold her hand, like i am privileged I will not do drugs, not very much anymore, at least the escape is amazing the high sends me away from the ******** so i will get away with you, sister because i understand you now i am 2 years older i may be sad i am sad but i have you always 2,000 miles away or 1 inch It scares me to think another human being can make your mind work backwards But I can never un-know the truths of my mother's past or un-see the scars of my sisters present So I sat there wondering when my time will come, wondering who will be the one to manipulate my mind to work backwards so I hope you can understand why sometimes I expect you to do your worst, while you continue to give me reasons to expect your best Because, sister, you are the best and do understand i can see that can you?
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Aug 9, 2015
Aug 9, 2015 at 12:45 PM UTC
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