"We're trying so ******* hard
not to be a couple.
Not to act
like we want each other more than anything.
But holy ****
it's like trying to forget how to breathe.
How can you just stop doing something
so natural that you never even learned to do it,
something just happened on its own?
How can you stop something
that feels so ******* right
and calming
and healthy
and try to find alternatives?
Ways to complete life
without doing the action
you're trying so hard not to do?
Pretending not to love him feels like
being on a respirator.
I just want to breathe again,
I just want to breathe naturally;
I just want to be his again,
I just want to be us again."
Jul 2, 2015
Jul 2, 2015 at 3:02 AM UTC
"We're trying so ******* hard
not to be a couple.
Not to act
like we want each other more than anything.
But holy ****
it's like trying to forget how to breathe.
How can you just stop doing something
so natural that you never even learned to do it,
something just happened on its own?
How can you stop something
that feels so ******* right
and calming
and healthy
and try to find alternatives?
Ways to complete life
without doing the action
you're trying so hard not to do?
Pretending not to love him feels like
being on a respirator.
I just want to breathe again,
I just want to breathe naturally;
I just want to be his again,
I just want to be us again."
what I sent to a friend tonight, revised.
2:00am
7/2/2015
