a counselor once told me I had abandonment issues
so i have dreams of this guy shoving his tongue down
my throat like a dart and it makes me s c a r e d of the
things I can't see in people, unable to discern the
true intentions in the b e d r o c k of their heart
because I don't excavate men anymore (at least that's
what I will tell myself) and I've only e v e r had boys
for toys, people who give me their strings for play
things. endearing but emasculating, the two things
i've aspired to be and I guess I'm just terrified of
not having control, of being the lowest block on the
totem pole with you can leave me dangled over my
head, you can leave me, you can leave me, you can
leave me.
May 11, 2015
May 11, 2015 at 2:48 PM UTC
a counselor once told me I had abandonment issues
so i have dreams of this guy shoving his tongue down
my throat like a dart and it makes me s c a r e d of the
things I can't see in people, unable to discern the
true intentions in the b e d r o c k of their heart
because I don't excavate men anymore (at least that's
what I will tell myself) and I've only e v e r had boys
for toys, people who give me their strings for play
things. endearing but emasculating, the two things
i've aspired to be and I guess I'm just terrified of
not having control, of being the lowest block on the
totem pole with you can leave me dangled over my
head, you can leave me, you can leave me, you can
leave me.
(c) Brooke Otto 2015
boo.
