I was swinging on this swing
Like a child from the past
And these thoughts swarmed me
As the bees do in the spring
The time slowed, but I was happy
A blissful moment I yearn for
When my mind was running wild
But my heart was sound and still
It's in these moments I feel again
The beauty that living delivers us
Like the touch of sun after winter
And your flesh begins to smile
But this has passed and here I am
Again in this pit that I've dug
Where I think myself into a whirlwind
As I sink deeper into the hell I've seen
And so life goes round and round
Like a Ferris wheel spins and spins
But there is no such joy in this
Rather an empty hollow space I know
I'm in the void I ran from long ago
Wishing I would have stayed
Wondering what would have been
If only I accepted the reality I was in
My human self filled with chaos
Has brought me to the false present
That is really the death I've chosen
The very fate I've longed to escape
Yet somewhere in me waits for you
I cling to a hope that circles are lies
And there is a way to end this
That I won't keep ending back here
So as these moments of sleep
Pass me by like the wind in the fall
I will float like a leaf until I land
On the grounds my desire's dream
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 12:14 AM UTC
I was swinging on this swing
Like a child from the past
And these thoughts swarmed me
As the bees do in the spring
The time slowed, but I was happy
A blissful moment I yearn for
When my mind was running wild
But my heart was sound and still
It's in these moments I feel again
The beauty that living delivers us
Like the touch of sun after winter
And your flesh begins to smile
But this has passed and here I am
Again in this pit that I've dug
Where I think myself into a whirlwind
As I sink deeper into the hell I've seen
And so life goes round and round
Like a Ferris wheel spins and spins
But there is no such joy in this
Rather an empty hollow space I know
I'm in the void I ran from long ago
Wishing I would have stayed
Wondering what would have been
If only I accepted the reality I was in
My human self filled with chaos
Has brought me to the false present
That is really the death I've chosen
The very fate I've longed to escape
Yet somewhere in me waits for you
I cling to a hope that circles are lies
And there is a way to end this
That I won't keep ending back here
So as these moments of sleep
Pass me by like the wind in the fall
I will float like a leaf until I land
On the grounds my desire's dream
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