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My girlfriend is a brunette. Still feels weird calling her that. Or him - sometimes she's a he and that's fine. She's not a gender to me. She's a person. She's my person. But as I've said before, carving it out with black on white; I'm broken inside. I'm broken inside and I don't know how to feel. Am I scared or am I emotionless? What is that sinking ache in my stomach? Would my mom look at me differently, blow it out of proportion, if she knew? If she knew I loved the girl next door when I was eight. If she knew I drew a picture of our wedding and hid it because even when I was a kid I felt like a disgusting disappointment. If she knew I kissed a girl in my class when I was in the fourth grade. If she knew I've been this person all this time. I'm not different. I am the same. The same person I was three months ago. Before I had figured this out. Before I had figured me out. My girlfriend is a brunette and her sweet-tasting love is all I've got spinning around in my head right now. It's all I can think about. It's all, it's all I can think about.
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May 5, 2015
May 5, 2015 at 2:21 AM UTC
the tuesday after
My girlfriend is a brunette. Still feels weird calling her that. Or him - sometimes she's a he and that's fine. She's not a gender to me. She's a person. She's my person. But as I've said before, carving it out with black on white; I'm broken inside. I'm broken inside and I don't know how to feel. Am I scared or am I emotionless? What is that sinking ache in my stomach? Would my mom look at me differently, blow it out of proportion, if she knew? If she knew I loved the girl next door when I was eight. If she knew I drew a picture of our wedding and hid it because even when I was a kid I felt like a disgusting disappointment. If she knew I kissed a girl in my class when I was in the fourth grade. If she knew I've been this person all this time. I'm not different. I am the same. The same person I was three months ago. Before I had figured this out. Before I had figured me out. My girlfriend is a brunette and her sweet-tasting love is all I've got spinning around in my head right now. It's all I can think about. It's all, it's all I can think about.
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May 5, 2015
May 5, 2015 at 2:21 AM UTC
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