I remember overhearing at the tennis game
"I always take painkillers, I can't seem to get
the doctor to prescribe anything else
and I never sleep, and so with my morning
coffee, I slip some liquor in it
and take some Anadin, as simple as that."
I sat and listened. Just in earshot.
"It just calms me down and sets me off for the day."
I see her take out a flask.
Opening the lid she breathes in.
"And days like this," she giggles.
"I bring extra."
Both the women now giggle
I smile
maybe this will work for me.
That night I went home and straight
to the medicine cabinet
they sold paracetamol in tubs of hundreds
I was only 14
I'd only take a handful at a time
not enough to harm me
little enough to go unnoticed
I felt the rush even before I took them
I still have the journal from that time
an off-balance teenager who never fit in
a longing for freedom so deep
maybe this could give me the wings
to fly.
© Sia Jane
May 2, 2015
May 2, 2015 at 5:32 PM UTC
I remember overhearing at the tennis game
"I always take painkillers, I can't seem to get
the doctor to prescribe anything else
and I never sleep, and so with my morning
coffee, I slip some liquor in it
and take some Anadin, as simple as that."
I sat and listened. Just in earshot.
"It just calms me down and sets me off for the day."
I see her take out a flask.
Opening the lid she breathes in.
"And days like this," she giggles.
"I bring extra."
Both the women now giggle
I smile
maybe this will work for me.
That night I went home and straight
to the medicine cabinet
they sold paracetamol in tubs of hundreds
I was only 14
I'd only take a handful at a time
not enough to harm me
little enough to go unnoticed
I felt the rush even before I took them
I still have the journal from that time
an off-balance teenager who never fit in
a longing for freedom so deep
maybe this could give me the wings
to fly.
© Sia Jane
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