It was the only year that I got fat
From eating chocolate bars that my mother bought with the left over EBT cash
That way when she did my laundry
she could get mad about the
Chocolate stains on my sleeves
So I ate until I got sick
And bled until I passed out
It was the year that hangs heavy in the hallows of my heart
The same year of my second suicide attempt
You should know this
I know the crash of the gallows hangin’ from your shoulders
Sends thunder through your ears
I know the angel that’s supposed to sit on the other
Looks like a gargoyle sometimes
I know there are days where
You freeze up
Locked in place until someone finally touches you
There were words trapped underneath my skin
So I cut them out
So I could finally makes sense
Of the irregular morse code of my heart beat
There were words comin’ out of my mouth
Always the wrong words
So I tried to lasso my throat shut
What you should know is
There will always be days where gravity tries to trap you here
It’s why I ring doorbells all the time
My angel needs its wings
I want your angel to have its wings
This year
This is the year that
I find the words
To explain to you what my heart’s been sayin’
The year the gallows no longer crash
The year my angel gets its wings
If you didn’t know this before
You are so perfect
You are so amazing
Your smile is amazing
On the days you are happy to see me
I swear I could take your cheeks sailing
We never needed the words
To explain what my heart's been saying
At any given moment
As long as I am breathing
There’s a guy
Thumbin’ doorbells as desperate as impatience
Teary eyed and trembling
Just trying
To get you back your wings
Jul 16, 2011
Jul 16, 2011 at 1:09 PM UTC
It was the only year that I got fat
From eating chocolate bars that my mother bought with the left over EBT cash
That way when she did my laundry
she could get mad about the
Chocolate stains on my sleeves
So I ate until I got sick
And bled until I passed out
It was the year that hangs heavy in the hallows of my heart
The same year of my second suicide attempt
You should know this
I know the crash of the gallows hangin’ from your shoulders
Sends thunder through your ears
I know the angel that’s supposed to sit on the other
Looks like a gargoyle sometimes
I know there are days where
You freeze up
Locked in place until someone finally touches you
There were words trapped underneath my skin
So I cut them out
So I could finally makes sense
Of the irregular morse code of my heart beat
There were words comin’ out of my mouth
Always the wrong words
So I tried to lasso my throat shut
What you should know is
There will always be days where gravity tries to trap you here
It’s why I ring doorbells all the time
My angel needs its wings
I want your angel to have its wings
This year
This is the year that
I find the words
To explain to you what my heart’s been sayin’
The year the gallows no longer crash
The year my angel gets its wings
If you didn’t know this before
You are so perfect
You are so amazing
Your smile is amazing
On the days you are happy to see me
I swear I could take your cheeks sailing
We never needed the words
To explain what my heart's been saying
At any given moment
As long as I am breathing
There’s a guy
Thumbin’ doorbells as desperate as impatience
Teary eyed and trembling
Just trying
To get you back your wings
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