In my chemical dependency class we have to write down days sober chemically, and says sober emotionally.
Days sober chemically: 55
Days sober emotionally: 75
But they don’t ask how many days it has been since I thought of you.
They don’t teach you how to control cravings for a person.
I could write a book on ways
to control the urges to smoke a joint,
but I am helpless as
to how to prevent myself from texting you.
I don’t have withdrawl symptoms from *** or *****
I do have symptoms
of a broken heart.
I can’t remember the last time
I used, but I can remember the
last time I felt your skin
against mine.
Last time I took a shot was,
I don’t remember when.
Last time I felt your lips
against mine,
was on the 29th of
November.
I don’t have a craving for **** or *****
but I do have a craving for you.
I can stop smoking whenever I want.
I can stop drinking whenever I want.
But I can’t quit you.
Because, baby, you’re the monkey on my back.
You don’t encourage me to drink or smoke,
You encourage me by existing.
They say that we all have the power to be sober,
But, what if I don’t want to be sober?
Because when I become sober from you,
Is when you have passed through.
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 12:33 PM UTC
In my chemical dependency class we have to write down days sober chemically, and says sober emotionally.
Days sober chemically: 55
Days sober emotionally: 75
But they don’t ask how many days it has been since I thought of you.
They don’t teach you how to control cravings for a person.
I could write a book on ways
to control the urges to smoke a joint,
but I am helpless as
to how to prevent myself from texting you.
I don’t have withdrawl symptoms from *** or *****
I do have symptoms
of a broken heart.
I can’t remember the last time
I used, but I can remember the
last time I felt your skin
against mine.
Last time I took a shot was,
I don’t remember when.
Last time I felt your lips
against mine,
was on the 29th of
November.
I don’t have a craving for **** or *****
but I do have a craving for you.
I can stop smoking whenever I want.
I can stop drinking whenever I want.
But I can’t quit you.
Because, baby, you’re the monkey on my back.
You don’t encourage me to drink or smoke,
You encourage me by existing.
They say that we all have the power to be sober,
But, what if I don’t want to be sober?
Because when I become sober from you,
Is when you have passed through.
Copyright © 2015 by Kathleen McSweeney
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