I wanted to cry
but couldn't—22 year old American male—
so I laced up running shoes
no jacket
just shorts
12 degree punishment.
I needed to get away
from a silent phone,
an empty inbox
so I could scream out my coward
sprinting over hills
in the full moon's
telling light.
I try to curdle blood
but choke
on vocal cords
bolted in place
by modern modesty
too scared
to sound my barbaric yawp
I yelp
like a coyote
the size of a wolf pup
that only has breath enough
for half a call.
I stop to catch the wind
and with it
howl over and over
again and again
until I scream,
freezing every heartbeat
within earshot.
A single tear
drops on the fire.
Breathing heavier now
in the moon's empty landscape
I begin dragging my feet
slowly toward the agony of a silent phone
and an empty inbox, trying to calm myself
because one tear is not enough.
Mar 17, 2011
Mar 17, 2011 at 10:43 AM UTC
I wanted to cry
but couldn't—22 year old American male—
so I laced up running shoes
no jacket
just shorts
12 degree punishment.
I needed to get away
from a silent phone,
an empty inbox
so I could scream out my coward
sprinting over hills
in the full moon's
telling light.
I try to curdle blood
but choke
on vocal cords
bolted in place
by modern modesty
too scared
to sound my barbaric yawp
I yelp
like a coyote
the size of a wolf pup
that only has breath enough
for half a call.
I stop to catch the wind
and with it
howl over and over
again and again
until I scream,
freezing every heartbeat
within earshot.
A single tear
drops on the fire.
Breathing heavier now
in the moon's empty landscape
I begin dragging my feet
slowly toward the agony of a silent phone
and an empty inbox, trying to calm myself
because one tear is not enough.
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