He wore solitude
like a jacket two sizes too big—
insisting it fit,
insisting he needed the cold.
Lonely, but not reaching.
Hurt, but calling it freedom.
He said he preferred the quiet,
though the quiet kept echoing names
he refused to answer.
His trauma sat beside him
like an untrained dog—
never leashed, never healed,
growling at anything that tried to come close.
So he learned to leave first.
He learned to call it choice.
I found him wandering in circles,
mistaking motion for escape,
chasing horizons that never asked him to arrive.
Every step was distance,
every distance felt safer than staying.
I tried not to chase—
but caring has a gravity of its own.
I watched him disappear
into the comfort of his own absence,
convinced that being alone
hurt less than being known.
And maybe that was true, once.
Maybe loneliness felt familiar,
and love felt like a language
he was punished for speaking.
So he wandered.
Not because he wanted emptiness—
but because emptiness
never demanded his truth.
And I learned this:
some people aren’t lost.
They are hiding.
And some wounds don’t bleed—
they walk.
Jan 4
Jan 4, 2026 at 3:01 PM UTC
He wore solitude
like a jacket two sizes too big—
insisting it fit,
insisting he needed the cold.
Lonely, but not reaching.
Hurt, but calling it freedom.
He said he preferred the quiet,
though the quiet kept echoing names
he refused to answer.
His trauma sat beside him
like an untrained dog—
never leashed, never healed,
growling at anything that tried to come close.
So he learned to leave first.
He learned to call it choice.
I found him wandering in circles,
mistaking motion for escape,
chasing horizons that never asked him to arrive.
Every step was distance,
every distance felt safer than staying.
I tried not to chase—
but caring has a gravity of its own.
I watched him disappear
into the comfort of his own absence,
convinced that being alone
hurt less than being known.
And maybe that was true, once.
Maybe loneliness felt familiar,
and love felt like a language
he was punished for speaking.
So he wandered.
Not because he wanted emptiness—
but because emptiness
never demanded his truth.
And I learned this:
some people aren’t lost.
They are hiding.
And some wounds don’t bleed—
they walk.
