I see the barrel at the temple
feel the nickel sized circle on the skin
hear the loud last report
after the trigger pulled
daily, this scene scrolls in the head
a secret, e pluribus unum, one
no other players read
in their scripts
I don't write theirs, only
mine, and they have their own
clandestine plans, their own
scenes at the edge of the
abyss
sometimes, I see them
fall, screaming, or silent
until they land among the other
bones
I don't know, I will never
see that place with my eyes
for I lack the courage to jump
or squeeze the trigger
no
I will find a way to sleep
and never wake up, let others wonder what lines
I read in my final hours hiding from the sun,
or why I chose pills and potions
instead of the gun
Sep 5, 2015
Sep 5, 2015 at 11:28 AM UTC
I see the barrel at the temple
feel the nickel sized circle on the skin
hear the loud last report
after the trigger pulled
daily, this scene scrolls in the head
a secret, e pluribus unum, one
no other players read
in their scripts
I don't write theirs, only
mine, and they have their own
clandestine plans, their own
scenes at the edge of the
abyss
sometimes, I see them
fall, screaming, or silent
until they land among the other
bones
I don't know, I will never
see that place with my eyes
for I lack the courage to jump
or squeeze the trigger
no
I will find a way to sleep
and never wake up, let others wonder what lines
I read in my final hours hiding from the sun,
or why I chose pills and potions
instead of the gun
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