I should warn you right now
That you probably should go
There are secrets about me that you will never know
I'm not a girl to love
Because my love doesn't last
I fall so deeply in love so quickly
And fall out just as fast
These secrets are everything to do with it
And they have complete control
So don't ask me to let you in
Because they force me to say no
These secrets are demons
Who tricked their way in
They turned my pure and innocent heart
Into darkness and sin
This numbness is the best friend
That I never asked for
The one that I never realized
I bargained for
In exchange for the pain
That I felt every day
The numbness came in and asked if he could take it away
There were no terms or conditions
In exchange for relief
Just pure satisfaction
That I was no longer weak
But as time passed on
I realized what he had done
Not only did he suppress my pain
But he also stole my love
The ability to love so deeply
That pain could break me
At times I have thanked him
But more often I feel lonely
I fell in love with you
I've never had love so pure
Why my best friend, this darkness
Let it happen, I'm not sure
He's never been one to share
So I'm worried about what he'll do
That's why I'm scared to let you in,
Because he never makes room for two
I think I gave him my soul..
And he ate it with a smile
As he kindly burned the pain away
And swept the ashes into a pile
He showed me how to live without love
Sometimes I feel like I owe him
For mentoring me as I grew up
I used to be thankful to have him
I realize now that I messed up
And I made a mistake
I can't be happy without your love
And I can't have love without pain
I shouldn't have let him take over
My soul became nearly black
I can survive on your love
So I'm accepting all of the pain back
Your love is strong enough
To carry my dark and regretful past
I trust you with my life and my heart
I believe that we could last.
Jun 21, 2015
Jun 21, 2015 at 6:01 PM UTC
I should warn you right now
That you probably should go
There are secrets about me that you will never know
I'm not a girl to love
Because my love doesn't last
I fall so deeply in love so quickly
And fall out just as fast
These secrets are everything to do with it
And they have complete control
So don't ask me to let you in
Because they force me to say no
These secrets are demons
Who tricked their way in
They turned my pure and innocent heart
Into darkness and sin
This numbness is the best friend
That I never asked for
The one that I never realized
I bargained for
In exchange for the pain
That I felt every day
The numbness came in and asked if he could take it away
There were no terms or conditions
In exchange for relief
Just pure satisfaction
That I was no longer weak
But as time passed on
I realized what he had done
Not only did he suppress my pain
But he also stole my love
The ability to love so deeply
That pain could break me
At times I have thanked him
But more often I feel lonely
I fell in love with you
I've never had love so pure
Why my best friend, this darkness
Let it happen, I'm not sure
He's never been one to share
So I'm worried about what he'll do
That's why I'm scared to let you in,
Because he never makes room for two
I think I gave him my soul..
And he ate it with a smile
As he kindly burned the pain away
And swept the ashes into a pile
He showed me how to live without love
Sometimes I feel like I owe him
For mentoring me as I grew up
I used to be thankful to have him
I realize now that I messed up
And I made a mistake
I can't be happy without your love
And I can't have love without pain
I shouldn't have let him take over
My soul became nearly black
I can survive on your love
So I'm accepting all of the pain back
Your love is strong enough
To carry my dark and regretful past
I trust you with my life and my heart
I believe that we could last.
