The seed was planted
On a flight across the Atlantic.
For whatever reason
I became aware
My stomach seemed bigger
My attention turned there.
Coming home from a trip
My clothes had a different fit
I became concerned,
Parts of my brain started to churn.
I want to fix this.
The flower I began to cultivate
Was one of anger and self-hate.
But most of Grade 12 I was busy
I had to perfect my coursework
Sports, clubs and a job made me dizzy.
All the while the flower was there
Slowly it grew,
I began restricting and exercising more
Nobody else knew
I wasn't getting results
But I am a goal oriented girl,
So as soon as life wasn't busy,
My mind really started to swirl.
That flower grew much faster
Sprouted very tall,
I hid my self-hate carefully,
Only realizing its horror once it became Fall
Petals have fallen, but parts of that flower still stand.
I'm trying to cut it down,
To resist helping it grow,
So the real me can be found
And a new flower I can sow
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 11:40 AM UTC
The seed was planted
On a flight across the Atlantic.
For whatever reason
I became aware
My stomach seemed bigger
My attention turned there.
Coming home from a trip
My clothes had a different fit
I became concerned,
Parts of my brain started to churn.
I want to fix this.
The flower I began to cultivate
Was one of anger and self-hate.
But most of Grade 12 I was busy
I had to perfect my coursework
Sports, clubs and a job made me dizzy.
All the while the flower was there
Slowly it grew,
I began restricting and exercising more
Nobody else knew
I wasn't getting results
But I am a goal oriented girl,
So as soon as life wasn't busy,
My mind really started to swirl.
That flower grew much faster
Sprouted very tall,
I hid my self-hate carefully,
Only realizing its horror once it became Fall
Petals have fallen, but parts of that flower still stand.
I'm trying to cut it down,
To resist helping it grow,
So the real me can be found
And a new flower I can sow
