I am desperate –
for all the effortless things
just so my blood has a chance to
sing for something
again
but out of all the open air that
has kissed my skin
and all the people who
were lucky to love me
the only easement I knew
was you
and before, during, after
well,
I was never enough for myself –
not once, not ever
so I find myself
aching for the effortlessness
but not aching for you in the way
I used to
I can’t find it – my effortlessness –
without you
because I believe they
are one in the same
so I wander –
a drifting soul –
from progression to progression
congratulations
you seem so happy
I am so proud
all these tangible things –
they will never bring me the
easement I knew from only you
Apr 16, 2015
Apr 16, 2015 at 9:32 PM UTC
I am desperate –
for all the effortless things
just so my blood has a chance to
sing for something
again
but out of all the open air that
has kissed my skin
and all the people who
were lucky to love me
the only easement I knew
was you
and before, during, after
well,
I was never enough for myself –
not once, not ever
so I find myself
aching for the effortlessness
but not aching for you in the way
I used to
I can’t find it – my effortlessness –
without you
because I believe they
are one in the same
so I wander –
a drifting soul –
from progression to progression
congratulations
you seem so happy
I am so proud
all these tangible things –
they will never bring me the
easement I knew from only you