I don’t mean to
be found
unguarded
I was held
hid
under the mask
that I wanted it
it’s cruel
now it ruins
everything I know
I wasn’t invincible
taken advantage of
I’ve shown
clarity I didn’t ask
rush of emotions
like I messed up
it came
out of my mouth
words that proves
what I was doing
I waited more
than move
hoped more
than resent
I dread for months,
not for breadcrumbs
I needed clear intentions
Reasons to survive
I self sabotage
to make it certain
it is more bearable
if I messed it up
Oct 9, 2025
Oct 9, 2025 at 8:53 PM UTC
I don’t mean to
be found
unguarded
I was held
hid
under the mask
that I wanted it
it’s cruel
now it ruins
everything I know
I wasn’t invincible
taken advantage of
I’ve shown
clarity I didn’t ask
rush of emotions
like I messed up
it came
out of my mouth
words that proves
what I was doing
I waited more
than move
hoped more
than resent
I dread for months,
not for breadcrumbs
I needed clear intentions
Reasons to survive
I self sabotage
to make it certain
it is more bearable
if I messed it up
some last act of love maybe, it did feel like I have to tell you but it doesn’t concern you anymore