Have you ever been in a state of unknowing?
not just not knowing the answer on a test or the direction to a building but
not knowing who you are in a more physical sense
I guess
Seeing the reflection in a mirror and not fully recognizing the eyes that meet yours
Looking at the hands your body came with and feeling like they are a little too big
Staring at the legs your parents gave you and thinking they are a little to long
But it's more than that
The unknowing bleeds into everything
When you’re in a group you feel like you’re only observing while you're talking
When you’re waiting and lose track of how long its been since you even started waiting
When you’re unknowingness becomes so extreme you don't even know if your real anymore
But don't stress
You didn't know from the start so nothings changed
But how could you know…
May 9, 2025
May 9, 2025 at 7:18 PM UTC
Have you ever been in a state of unknowing?
not just not knowing the answer on a test or the direction to a building but
not knowing who you are in a more physical sense
I guess
Seeing the reflection in a mirror and not fully recognizing the eyes that meet yours
Looking at the hands your body came with and feeling like they are a little too big
Staring at the legs your parents gave you and thinking they are a little to long
But it's more than that
The unknowing bleeds into everything
When you’re in a group you feel like you’re only observing while you're talking
When you’re waiting and lose track of how long its been since you even started waiting
When you’re unknowingness becomes so extreme you don't even know if your real anymore
But don't stress
You didn't know from the start so nothings changed
But how could you know…
This is my first poem and its about my DPDS but more on the depersonalization side hence the title. Thank you for welcoming me in to your community and I hope to write much more!