Today was a day full of nothing
And what a terrible day
To have nothing to distract me
From the acid injected into my heart
Slowly eroding away the happiness
That made my life so bright
Over the past months
Today I sat in my box
Just sighing as I have finally reached
That point of total despair
That point of realization
When I know something won't go well
Why does this bother me so much
I was perfectly fine without her
But that was before we met
Now I know a life with such joy
An unreal bliss where we could
Talk and smile everyday
She said she didn't leave me
She just wants a healthy balance
I was dominating too much of her life
She has other people to take care of
But how much does sitting by me really matter
If your back is turned the entire time
And when I scream about my loss
You ignore it and leave me
To sit in my misery
Who can blame her
I'm depressing when I'm like this
And she has no reason to stay
No reason to let me hear her voice everyday
Or at all really
No matter how much it would mean to me
How much it would remedy
She remains blind to it all
Or she sees it and doesn't care
Or wants me to let it all go
Well when my days are so empty
So lacking of distraction
I get to think about things like this
The things that poison my hopes
And make me afraid of my future
But I manage to make realizations
Such as this: It's all over
She's gone and never coming back
The sighs that I can't help but let escape
As they carry the happy memories
Out into thin air, into nothing
Leave me just as empty
As today itself
Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 2:12 PM UTC
Today was a day full of nothing
And what a terrible day
To have nothing to distract me
From the acid injected into my heart
Slowly eroding away the happiness
That made my life so bright
Over the past months
Today I sat in my box
Just sighing as I have finally reached
That point of total despair
That point of realization
When I know something won't go well
Why does this bother me so much
I was perfectly fine without her
But that was before we met
Now I know a life with such joy
An unreal bliss where we could
Talk and smile everyday
She said she didn't leave me
She just wants a healthy balance
I was dominating too much of her life
She has other people to take care of
But how much does sitting by me really matter
If your back is turned the entire time
And when I scream about my loss
You ignore it and leave me
To sit in my misery
Who can blame her
I'm depressing when I'm like this
And she has no reason to stay
No reason to let me hear her voice everyday
Or at all really
No matter how much it would mean to me
How much it would remedy
She remains blind to it all
Or she sees it and doesn't care
Or wants me to let it all go
Well when my days are so empty
So lacking of distraction
I get to think about things like this
The things that poison my hopes
And make me afraid of my future
But I manage to make realizations
Such as this: It's all over
She's gone and never coming back
The sighs that I can't help but let escape
As they carry the happy memories
Out into thin air, into nothing
Leave me just as empty
As today itself
