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I wish they would’ve told me about EDNOS Eating disorder not otherwise specified That just because I don’t throw up or starve myself extremely Doesn’t mean that I’m fine But they didn’t tell me So my EDNOS I kept to myself I thought that it was just me That I didn’t need help I wish they would’ve told me about real depression That it’s not always sudden It can creep up on you That it’s not always so obvious But they didn’t tell me So my depression I hid I thought that if no one noticed, then it didn’t exist That I didn’t need help I wish they would’ve told me about real self harm That it’s not just cutting Self harm is hurting yourself And it isn’t always ****** But they didn’t tell me So I told myself that it wasn’t self harm That biting bruises in my arms was ok Scratching myself to cope wasn’t really self harm I wish they would’ve told me about anxiety That it’s unexplainable to anyone How one minute your fine and the next You feel like you’re dying But they didn’t tell me So my anxiety I dismissed My fears weren’t explainable When I couldn’t breathe, I was fine I wish that they told me that it was about me How I felt How no one could invalidate my issues Even if I didn’t fit the definitions perfectly But they didn’t tell me So when my mom said I was PMSing Myself I started second guessing Maybe how I felt was normal Above all I wish they would’ve told me to tell someone That handling my health by myself is hard Too big a burden to handle on my own You can’t use your mind to fix what’s inside your mind But they didn’t tell me So I struggle alone with my depression and anxiety I suffer in silence with the evidence of my self harm and EDNOS And soon they won’t be able to tell me anything anymore
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Mar 13, 2018
Mar 13, 2018 at 8:42 PM UTC
I wish They Would’ve Told Me
I wish they would’ve told me about EDNOS Eating disorder not otherwise specified That just because I don’t throw up or starve myself extremely Doesn’t mean that I’m fine But they didn’t tell me So my EDNOS I kept to myself I thought that it was just me That I didn’t need help I wish they would’ve told me about real depression That it’s not always sudden It can creep up on you That it’s not always so obvious But they didn’t tell me So my depression I hid I thought that if no one noticed, then it didn’t exist That I didn’t need help I wish they would’ve told me about real self harm That it’s not just cutting Self harm is hurting yourself And it isn’t always ****** But they didn’t tell me So I told myself that it wasn’t self harm That biting bruises in my arms was ok Scratching myself to cope wasn’t really self harm I wish they would’ve told me about anxiety That it’s unexplainable to anyone How one minute your fine and the next You feel like you’re dying But they didn’t tell me So my anxiety I dismissed My fears weren’t explainable When I couldn’t breathe, I was fine I wish that they told me that it was about me How I felt How no one could invalidate my issues Even if I didn’t fit the definitions perfectly But they didn’t tell me So when my mom said I was PMSing Myself I started second guessing Maybe how I felt was normal Above all I wish they would’ve told me to tell someone That handling my health by myself is hard Too big a burden to handle on my own You can’t use your mind to fix what’s inside your mind But they didn’t tell me So I struggle alone with my depression and anxiety I suffer in silence with the evidence of my self harm and EDNOS And soon they won’t be able to tell me anything anymore
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viv-3
Mar 13, 2018
Mar 13, 2018 at 8:42 PM UTC
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