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Everything, is fine, it is. Fine, If I have that again, it will, make me sick It will always get stuck in my throat, I would choke. Sick, that I don't need, Don't eat. leave it out? Totally. Someone might see, know, help, me? Getting worse. Help myself. Normality, keeping things usual. Work. Pull myself together? get over it, don't be silly: That's not helpful, don’t say anything. What's happening? I've never passed out before. You in my head will you explain What to do, yes you; I'm losing, help me? see things I'm missing. Ignore. Remember being sick ? I don't want that, leave, I Need food to keep the same. Not. Change. Food others have makes me feel unwell. Don't eat. I. Tremble, consider, stare, UNABLE TO EAT MEALS, Eat: with everyone, sit, quiet, be slow, as much as possible, I will leave. At least I tried. To observing eyes. I did well? Touch leave, take leave tremble, later, maybe. No. Don't want to, yet: need to think, what I'm going to have? where I'm going to eat? you can tell me, yes, no.? Safe food list, alters, becomes not safe. It has changed, different cold. Leave it. If it's not the same, colour, shape, smell, not safe, Wait. It's on the list. Avoid it, the date is old, milkshake best. In therapy, I speak, I listen, you unravel. Best? help me? keep to timetable? Its achievable. What has really happened.? Avoid? Try? Listen. Try, try Is it fine?,  me  trying, still worried, concerned. Not what you thought (ARFID)  Michael C Crowder  September 2018
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Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 11:14 AM UTC
Not what you thought
Everything, is fine, it is. Fine, If I have that again, it will, make me sick It will always get stuck in my throat, I would choke. Sick, that I don't need, Don't eat. leave it out? Totally. Someone might see, know, help, me? Getting worse. Help myself. Normality, keeping things usual. Work. Pull myself together? get over it, don't be silly: That's not helpful, don’t say anything. What's happening? I've never passed out before. You in my head will you explain What to do, yes you; I'm losing, help me? see things I'm missing. Ignore. Remember being sick ? I don't want that, leave, I Need food to keep the same. Not. Change. Food others have makes me feel unwell. Don't eat. I. Tremble, consider, stare, UNABLE TO EAT MEALS, Eat: with everyone, sit, quiet, be slow, as much as possible, I will leave. At least I tried. To observing eyes. I did well? Touch leave, take leave tremble, later, maybe. No. Don't want to, yet: need to think, what I'm going to have? where I'm going to eat? you can tell me, yes, no.? Safe food list, alters, becomes not safe. It has changed, different cold. Leave it. If it's not the same, colour, shape, smell, not safe, Wait. It's on the list. Avoid it, the date is old, milkshake best. In therapy, I speak, I listen, you unravel. Best? help me? keep to timetable? Its achievable. What has really happened.? Avoid? Try? Listen. Try, try Is it fine?,  me  trying, still worried, concerned. Not what you thought (ARFID)  Michael C Crowder  September 2018
Words and observations of a two year continuing battle happening to someone I love very much It took a long time to get a correct diagnosis, most people suspected Anorexia which is so different from ARFID.
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70/M/Ipswich UK
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 11:14 AM UTC
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