In my desperation
for a story that I could tell
I found myself divided into three
the girl out of time
the girl who never slept
the girl made of symbols
one is for the past
when I could see what others could not
and others could not see me
I saw light shadows earth and air
and found my place among them
but assumption and apathy
ignorance and monotony
lured me into false independance
and I simply disappeared
faded to a wisp of self
faded to transparency
one is for the present
when time and dread and overthought
drove me to restless places
I stole my being from moments of calm
and tore it limb from limb
by day I fell ill with stillness of mind
through self-inflicted turmoil and disorder
I found my comfort in the lull of night
I was accustomed to dawn
and the correspondence of birds
insomnia thrived before softly lit grace
one is for the future
when I've found patience and comprehension
long lost in angst and exhaustion
presence and mind in translation
I will live by the stories under my skin
I will become ink, I will become words
I will become the doctrine by which I am governed
I will belong to ideas
I will become a story
I will be forever speaking
however silent
Apr 26, 2012
Apr 26, 2012 at 7:07 AM UTC
In my desperation
for a story that I could tell
I found myself divided into three
the girl out of time
the girl who never slept
the girl made of symbols
one is for the past
when I could see what others could not
and others could not see me
I saw light shadows earth and air
and found my place among them
but assumption and apathy
ignorance and monotony
lured me into false independance
and I simply disappeared
faded to a wisp of self
faded to transparency
one is for the present
when time and dread and overthought
drove me to restless places
I stole my being from moments of calm
and tore it limb from limb
by day I fell ill with stillness of mind
through self-inflicted turmoil and disorder
I found my comfort in the lull of night
I was accustomed to dawn
and the correspondence of birds
insomnia thrived before softly lit grace
one is for the future
when I've found patience and comprehension
long lost in angst and exhaustion
presence and mind in translation
I will live by the stories under my skin
I will become ink, I will become words
I will become the doctrine by which I am governed
I will belong to ideas
I will become a story
I will be forever speaking
however silent
