tomorrow's thanksgiving,
i've been trying to avoid
thinking about this day
for weeks.
i've lodged the thought of
it out of my head,
i've buried it away
but i can no longer
avoid it.
i don't want to
stare at an empty
place at the table.
four plates,
four forks,
four spoons,
four knives,
four glasses,
instead of five.
having to fill the silence
with questions about
school and post-grad life,
to steer the topic away
from how empty and sad
we feel without you.
at some points,
seven months
feels the same
as one.
time physically passes by,
and the next thing i know,
it's been seven months
rather than three.
it feels subjective to me,
i've been waiting for time
to mend me and my
hurting heart
but the day hasn't
come.
living with the loss
of you will always
sting,
even if it's just a bit.
i will stare at
the empty place
tomorrow and wonder
why you had to be taken
from me.
i give thanks for the 21
years i had with you
but they'll never feel like
enough.
do they celebrate
thanksgiving in heaven?
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 11:22 PM UTC
tomorrow's thanksgiving,
i've been trying to avoid
thinking about this day
for weeks.
i've lodged the thought of
it out of my head,
i've buried it away
but i can no longer
avoid it.
i don't want to
stare at an empty
place at the table.
four plates,
four forks,
four spoons,
four knives,
four glasses,
instead of five.
having to fill the silence
with questions about
school and post-grad life,
to steer the topic away
from how empty and sad
we feel without you.
at some points,
seven months
feels the same
as one.
time physically passes by,
and the next thing i know,
it's been seven months
rather than three.
it feels subjective to me,
i've been waiting for time
to mend me and my
hurting heart
but the day hasn't
come.
living with the loss
of you will always
sting,
even if it's just a bit.
i will stare at
the empty place
tomorrow and wonder
why you had to be taken
from me.
i give thanks for the 21
years i had with you
but they'll never feel like
enough.
do they celebrate
thanksgiving in heaven?
