My search for God has not led me far,
just into a bed with a man
Who spoke from scripture.
His holy spirit spat at me,
taking advantage to persecute my ignorance.
I thought God was there, his name came up,
The man believed, I am certain of this.
I spent small moments sitting in pews, listening,
Watching the moment of transfiguration.
A glistening, a subtle odor of Christ, I swear.
Wanting to believe so I might receive the sacraments,
Baptism, Holy Communion, Marriage.
I walked near, then turned down a stumbling road,
Never finishing, never marrying.
Still walking to God, in search of God,
Wanting to find him holding
A palm leaf, an olive branch, and a man.
Still walking, I'll plan a pilgrimage,
walk to a monastery,
Eat dry bread dipped in hot salted broth,
Walk until my soles tear,
My clothes dissolve into rags.
Walking,
I will walk to God
Until the end,
Even if a man denies my effort,
My head is down.
May 28, 2016
May 28, 2016 at 9:49 PM UTC
My search for God has not led me far,
just into a bed with a man
Who spoke from scripture.
His holy spirit spat at me,
taking advantage to persecute my ignorance.
I thought God was there, his name came up,
The man believed, I am certain of this.
I spent small moments sitting in pews, listening,
Watching the moment of transfiguration.
A glistening, a subtle odor of Christ, I swear.
Wanting to believe so I might receive the sacraments,
Baptism, Holy Communion, Marriage.
I walked near, then turned down a stumbling road,
Never finishing, never marrying.
Still walking to God, in search of God,
Wanting to find him holding
A palm leaf, an olive branch, and a man.
Still walking, I'll plan a pilgrimage,
walk to a monastery,
Eat dry bread dipped in hot salted broth,
Walk until my soles tear,
My clothes dissolve into rags.
Walking,
I will walk to God
Until the end,
Even if a man denies my effort,
My head is down.
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