LisaJeanineWinett - Hello Poetry

You didn’t value my life, my time, my aging. You still don’t understand What you took from me. You don’t understand How each year in a woman’s life, Is worth 10 of a man’s. You think time spent with you Should have been time’s payment. But you didn’t pay me enough. The thing you bought, My life’s time, Is worth 30 times thirty years of your own.

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2d ago

May 31, 2026 at 11:59 PM UTC

Life’s Time Gross Value

You didn’t value my life, my time, my aging. You still don’t understand What you took from me. You don’t understand How each year in a woman’s life, Is worth 10 of a man’s. You think time spent with you Should have been time’s payment. But you didn’t pay me enough. The thing you bought, My life’s time, Is worth 30 times thirty years of your own.

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The sheltering walls, the innocent chirping A light wind Flickering green, shaking trees A silent, peace explosion The hue mild, pastel The air still as a held breath No cracks, open doors Just the company of acorn stairlifts, and CNN, In here I am loved, Valuable like a pebble found in nature.

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5d ago

May 29, 2026 at 5:22 PM UTC

Domicile

The sheltering walls, the innocent chirping A light wind Flickering green, shaking trees A silent, peace explosion The hue mild, pastel The air still as a held breath No cracks, open doors Just the company of acorn stairlifts, and CNN, In here I am loved, Valuable like a pebble found in nature.

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I am down 4-5 pounds, At times I forget he even existed, The pain ebbs and flows, I am certain I will always be alone. I wonder who was the bad guy me or him? Anger still boils from time to time throughout the day. My process was rage. I am wondering if all this was because of trauma. He will never contact me again, of this I am certain. I fantasize about his current and future life. He is always laughing, Happier now.

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6d ago

May 28, 2026 at 7:33 AM UTC

Day 39

I am down 4-5 pounds, At times I forget he even existed, The pain ebbs and flows, I am certain I will always be alone. I wonder who was the bad guy me or him? Anger still boils from time to time throughout the day. My process was rage. I am wondering if all this was because of trauma. He will never contact me again, of this I am certain. I fantasize about his current and future life. He is always laughing, Happier now.

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you never did appreciate my soul, when you read me, you critiqued, rather than looking deep. rather than appreciating the vulnerability. my gift of fear, repulsed you, rather than cementing you to me.

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May 25

May 25, 2026 at 10:20 PM UTC

Mortar

you never did appreciate my soul, when you read me, you critiqued, rather than looking deep. rather than appreciating the vulnerability. my gift of fear, repulsed you, rather than cementing you to me.

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You are the answer to your ancestors prayers Bring…. Choose your words wisely. Feel the anger rising As the members speak Why do I get angry? My ask was that I attract no more anger Bring people to me that resonate peace. Attract people to me that flow kindness, Attract only the positive Leave the damage behind.

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May 24

May 24, 2026 at 11:55 AM UTC

Sound Bath Sunday

You are the answer to your ancestors prayers Bring…. Choose your words wisely. Feel the anger rising As the members speak Why do I get angry? My ask was that I attract no more anger Bring people to me that resonate peace. Attract people to me that flow kindness, Attract only the positive Leave the damage behind.

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I feel like I am floating Above my bed Like my whole house Levitates off the block. It’s an ethereal sensation, Moving into a new phase of life, Aging out of love and marriage. I’ll put my thinking cap on now, ***** it on my head so it stays put, Go back to the drawing board, With a more independent approach. Life has moved on, friends are in new places, While I kick the dirt On the road I was abandoned on.

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May 23

May 23, 2026 at 8:08 PM UTC

Kicking Rocks

I feel like I am floating Above my bed Like my whole house Levitates off the block. It’s an ethereal sensation, Moving into a new phase of life, Aging out of love and marriage. I’ll put my thinking cap on now, ***** it on my head so it stays put, Go back to the drawing board, With a more independent approach. Life has moved on, friends are in new places, While I kick the dirt On the road I was abandoned on.

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You were a manifestation of my anger. They all were, From the beginning, In the third floor walk-up, Stealing stereos, Hurling death threats, To the random strangers, On the streets of San Francisco, To his fury, On the back of his motorcycle, Then my settling For the first man Among the trees. And now you, Looking back at me, Through grinding, snarling teeth, Tossing tables in cafes, Grabbing a gun to **** someone. Anger’s reflection Brought to life Given to me.

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May 22

May 22, 2026 at 6:32 AM UTC

Reflections

You were a manifestation of my anger. They all were, From the beginning, In the third floor walk-up, Stealing stereos, Hurling death threats, To the random strangers, On the streets of San Francisco, To his fury, On the back of his motorcycle, Then my settling For the first man Among the trees. And now you, Looking back at me, Through grinding, snarling teeth, Tossing tables in cafes, Grabbing a gun to **** someone. Anger’s reflection Brought to life Given to me.

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I will sail away Build a castle Write ten thousand poems Meditate for 100 more years. I will not sacrifice my life again Forget who I am Hope for love again Delay my path again. I am a solo traveler Alone loner An outsider with no tribe This world is my stomping ground.

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May 22

May 22, 2026 at 5:17 AM UTC

The Next 50 Years

I will sail away Build a castle Write ten thousand poems Meditate for 100 more years. I will not sacrifice my life again Forget who I am Hope for love again Delay my path again. I am a solo traveler Alone loner An outsider with no tribe This world is my stomping ground.

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The initial bleeding has ceased Still, the bruising remains Just under the skin. “I feel like I have been hit by a truck!” She says. The physical therapy has begun. How can I recover three years of life? You have to try to spin the wheel backwards. My brain is still replaying The last conversations, I wish I was not mad I couldn’t control the anger That happen When he opened his mouth and had nothing to say. No substance No depth. I’ll wrap myself up Bind myself tight In an emotional shock I’ll curl up, close my eyes. But you have to get better, come back stronger, outlive longer, collect yourself, Get back to yourself, leave this planet a survivor.

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May 21

May 21, 2026 at 6:09 PM UTC

Physical Therapy

The initial bleeding has ceased Still, the bruising remains Just under the skin. “I feel like I have been hit by a truck!” She says. The physical therapy has begun. How can I recover three years of life? You have to try to spin the wheel backwards. My brain is still replaying The last conversations, I wish I was not mad I couldn’t control the anger That happen When he opened his mouth and had nothing to say. No substance No depth. I’ll wrap myself up Bind myself tight In an emotional shock I’ll curl up, close my eyes. But you have to get better, come back stronger, outlive longer, collect yourself, Get back to yourself, leave this planet a survivor.

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Just got the rest of my stuff from Regan’s. Had another talk/yell with him. Told him everything I had been thinking about. Felt good to tell him my honest feelings. I told him he led me on because while he was considering exiting the relationship, we were sitting there looking at houses in Thailand!! He said, “that can all still happen!” I said, “Not likely.” I’ll believe it if I ever see it!! He said, “we were basically living like friends.” I said, “ I don’t sleep in the same bed as my friends.” He said, “things had been ‘off’for a while. I said, “no they weren’t. Things were fine.” He said, “we hadn’t had *** in over a year!” I said, “it wasn’t because I didn’t want to! I had health issues! I was going through the change of life!” So, basically, when I started having ****** issues due to menopause, that meant things were “off”. So, god forbid he stays with a person through all the ages and stages of life! Or maybe the next gal just won’t have what I had. It is rare. Lucky me, he didn’t want to go through my change of life. Just another rite of passage no one wants to go through with me. No marriage No children in a marriage No partner during menopause I don’t expect there to be anyone there when I die. **** this life.

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May 17

May 17, 2026 at 5:28 PM UTC

Rites of passage

Just got the rest of my stuff from Regan’s. Had another talk/yell with him. Told him everything I had been thinking about. Felt good to tell him my honest feelings. I told him he led me on because while he was considering exiting the relationship, we were sitting there looking at houses in Thailand!! He said, “that can all still happen!” I said, “Not likely.” I’ll believe it if I ever see it!! He said, “we were basically living like friends.” I said, “ I don’t sleep in the same bed as my friends.” He said, “things had been ‘off’for a while. I said, “no they weren’t. Things were fine.” He said, “we hadn’t had *** in over a year!” I said, “it wasn’t because I didn’t want to! I had health issues! I was going through the change of life!” So, basically, when I started having ****** issues due to menopause, that meant things were “off”. So, god forbid he stays with a person through all the ages and stages of life! Or maybe the next gal just won’t have what I had. It is rare. Lucky me, he didn’t want to go through my change of life. Just another rite of passage no one wants to go through with me. No marriage No children in a marriage No partner during menopause I don’t expect there to be anyone there when I die. **** this life.

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