First base. Are you trying to find my soul through my lips?
Or are you just swallowing the silence she left behind?
Second base. Are you tracing ribs looking for a heart, or proof you are wanted?
Third base. Are you trying to convince yourself you want this?
Convince yourself this isn't loneliness dressed as heat?
Home run. Did you win, or lose something else?
Something left in your childhood that was once so pure and innocent.
I feel his hands on me,
They sting like bees but taste like honey.
When did the fire in my chest turn to smoke I choke on.
Am I trying to wash you out of my skin with someone else’s hands?
I don’t want to close my eyes just to see your face.
But when you look at me do you find her?
And for one more night
I’ll let you.
I’ll tell you.
Touch me,
Touch me until I can’t make you stop.
am I trying to outrun
The consequences I know will come,
When I'm trying to soak up every part left of you.
I can't search for your soul through your body - but you seem to like that idea.
Even if that means I won't be able to hold it again.
I'm digging my own grave.
And you’re the bloodstain on the shovel.
I look at his face trying to wash out you
You’re trying too.
You look at me trying to find her
Trying to pretend I'm someone that would work -
To keep you.
Are you checking my heart?
Checking it still beats for you?
I can't find your soul through your body.
And you never wanted me to.
You just wanted to know
Id hand mine over without asking for it back.
You wanted to suffocate the idea of her through mine.
I’m trying to forget you, while you are searching for me to forget her.
With my name like it will wash away the sound of her voice.
Let me let you go
I’m not the person you want. To forget someone, you don’t want to.
And for now,
Until the next dawn
When she forgets you
And you come running back.
Goodbye forever.
Or for however long until you come back.
Because I know you will.
6d ago
May 29, 2026 at 8:38 PM UTC
First base. Are you trying to find my soul through my lips?
Or are you just swallowing the silence she left behind?
Second base. Are you tracing ribs looking for a heart, or proof you are wanted?
Third base. Are you trying to convince yourself you want this?
Convince yourself this isn't loneliness dressed as heat?
Home run. Did you win, or lose something else?
Something left in your childhood that was once so pure and innocent.
I feel his hands on me,
They sting like bees but taste like honey.
When did the fire in my chest turn to smoke I choke on.
Am I trying to wash you out of my skin with someone else’s hands?
I don’t want to close my eyes just to see your face.
But when you look at me do you find her?
And for one more night
I’ll let you.
I’ll tell you.
Touch me,
Touch me until I can’t make you stop.
am I trying to outrun
The consequences I know will come,
When I'm trying to soak up every part left of you.
I can't search for your soul through your body - but you seem to like that idea.
Even if that means I won't be able to hold it again.
I'm digging my own grave.
And you’re the bloodstain on the shovel.
I look at his face trying to wash out you
You’re trying too.
You look at me trying to find her
Trying to pretend I'm someone that would work -
To keep you.
Are you checking my heart?
Checking it still beats for you?
I can't find your soul through your body.
And you never wanted me to.
You just wanted to know
Id hand mine over without asking for it back.
You wanted to suffocate the idea of her through mine.
I’m trying to forget you, while you are searching for me to forget her.
With my name like it will wash away the sound of her voice.
Let me let you go
I’m not the person you want. To forget someone, you don’t want to.
And for now,
Until the next dawn
When she forgets you
And you come running back.
Goodbye forever.
Or for however long until you come back.
Because I know you will.
5.3.26
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