"Break this curse on my love life!"
I exclaim to the universe
I blame the men
I blame the planets
I blame myself:
"What the hell is wrong with me?"
"Why am I not good enough?"
I call it bad timing, their loss
I am strong and smart and I'm getting by just fine on my own
Ignoring the love shaped hole in my heart
It's all just bad luck
Woe is me
When will I ever get a break?
I looked in the mirror today
Freshly clean after a ritual bath
Born anew after a lunar eclipse
I stared myself dead in the face and found gratitude
Gratitude for the love I do have in my life
Yet humbly seeking more
I said, "I would like more love in my life!"
"I welcome more love into my life!"
A message came back to me as I stared into my own soul:
"You are the one sabotaging your own love life"
Immediately I felt release
Release in the realization I am the one getting in the way of real intimate love
I named all of the things I need to change
Intuitively, I just knew
My heart is closed
I play games
I claim to be shy and awkward yet really, I always wait for the other to reveal their cards first
My signals are mixed; throat chakra blocked
Too afraid to go after the love I desire
Lesson after lesson, failing each test
Now I understand
There are no games in true love
There is no doubt in the world that yes, this is the person
This is organic chemistry
There is no fight, no going against wills
No question of mutual interest
No forcing something that isn't there
Simply all the right elements in the perfect combination, at the very right moment
Sparking, catalyzing
Grounded in reality
Finally, I understood
Finally, I broke the curse
May 26, 2021
May 26, 2021 at 6:34 PM UTC
"Break this curse on my love life!"
I exclaim to the universe
I blame the men
I blame the planets
I blame myself:
"What the hell is wrong with me?"
"Why am I not good enough?"
I call it bad timing, their loss
I am strong and smart and I'm getting by just fine on my own
Ignoring the love shaped hole in my heart
It's all just bad luck
Woe is me
When will I ever get a break?
I looked in the mirror today
Freshly clean after a ritual bath
Born anew after a lunar eclipse
I stared myself dead in the face and found gratitude
Gratitude for the love I do have in my life
Yet humbly seeking more
I said, "I would like more love in my life!"
"I welcome more love into my life!"
A message came back to me as I stared into my own soul:
"You are the one sabotaging your own love life"
Immediately I felt release
Release in the realization I am the one getting in the way of real intimate love
I named all of the things I need to change
Intuitively, I just knew
My heart is closed
I play games
I claim to be shy and awkward yet really, I always wait for the other to reveal their cards first
My signals are mixed; throat chakra blocked
Too afraid to go after the love I desire
Lesson after lesson, failing each test
Now I understand
There are no games in true love
There is no doubt in the world that yes, this is the person
This is organic chemistry
There is no fight, no going against wills
No question of mutual interest
No forcing something that isn't there
Simply all the right elements in the perfect combination, at the very right moment
Sparking, catalyzing
Grounded in reality
Finally, I understood
Finally, I broke the curse
lunar eclipse in my 5th house
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