Today you’ve hollowed me out
Because there are holes in my shoes
From chasing you
Hoping you could fill the holes in my heart
And this is tugging me out to sea
Like a riptide
I think I’ve already gone under
Undercover in the shadows of your silence
As I watch you from a corner you’ll never come to anymore
And wonder what I’ve done
There’s something punitive about the way I love you
And I lost you when I thought it was you that was strangling me
But it turns out it’s still me
Today I’m the version of me that you would love to hold
Who’s broken and tired of trying on personalities like hats
I’m miserable
The me who needs to be scooped into your arms
Because my heels are bleeding from running
Away from myself
The version of myself who’s not here at all
Because I became yours instead of becoming me
So I never became anyone at all
There are no more arms to run to
And I’m alone
And it’s just a Tuesday
I’m drowning out here
In the ocean of apologies I still owe you
What if I’m forever lost at sea
Oct 7, 2014
Oct 7, 2014 at 11:36 PM UTC
Today you’ve hollowed me out
Because there are holes in my shoes
From chasing you
Hoping you could fill the holes in my heart
And this is tugging me out to sea
Like a riptide
I think I’ve already gone under
Undercover in the shadows of your silence
As I watch you from a corner you’ll never come to anymore
And wonder what I’ve done
There’s something punitive about the way I love you
And I lost you when I thought it was you that was strangling me
But it turns out it’s still me
Today I’m the version of me that you would love to hold
Who’s broken and tired of trying on personalities like hats
I’m miserable
The me who needs to be scooped into your arms
Because my heels are bleeding from running
Away from myself
The version of myself who’s not here at all
Because I became yours instead of becoming me
So I never became anyone at all
There are no more arms to run to
And I’m alone
And it’s just a Tuesday
I’m drowning out here
In the ocean of apologies I still owe you
What if I’m forever lost at sea
