When I think of you,
I see this imaginary person my mind has created
to make the pain easier to endure,
I see you reading my words
and writing to me,
worried or smiling,
sometimes happy, but most of the time sad.
When I think of you,
I can feel the warmth coming from your soul
even though it is full of cold darkness and full of demons in there,
when I think of you
I imagine your beautiful smile,
your voice whispering healing words,
your eyes looking into my heart,
I can see myself being in your arms and feeling safe.
When I think of you
I imagine someone who would wait for me
in a small, warm-lighted house,
at the end of a hard winter day.
When I think of you,
I see someone who would
Make soup for me when I am down and hungry.
When I think of you, it sometimes hurts
because I will never know if you are real,
I will never have the smile,
I will always have only the words.
When I think of you
I have the feeling of emptiness,
like a cold winter wind blows in my body.
I feel like my stomach clenches up in knots,
and I can't breathe or speak any more.
When I think you, it hurts so much
because I'm always down,
I'm always hungry.
Dec 10, 2015
Dec 10, 2015 at 10:31 AM UTC
When I think of you,
I see this imaginary person my mind has created
to make the pain easier to endure,
I see you reading my words
and writing to me,
worried or smiling,
sometimes happy, but most of the time sad.
When I think of you,
I can feel the warmth coming from your soul
even though it is full of cold darkness and full of demons in there,
when I think of you
I imagine your beautiful smile,
your voice whispering healing words,
your eyes looking into my heart,
I can see myself being in your arms and feeling safe.
When I think of you
I imagine someone who would wait for me
in a small, warm-lighted house,
at the end of a hard winter day.
When I think of you,
I see someone who would
Make soup for me when I am down and hungry.
When I think of you, it sometimes hurts
because I will never know if you are real,
I will never have the smile,
I will always have only the words.
When I think of you
I have the feeling of emptiness,
like a cold winter wind blows in my body.
I feel like my stomach clenches up in knots,
and I can't breathe or speak any more.
When I think you, it hurts so much
because I'm always down,
I'm always hungry.
