I'm in denial
That anyone loves me
It's not paranoia
I know the truth
It echoes in my head
As tears fall onto my bed
Nobody cares
I'm just a tool to use
For them to get ahead
Noones ever loved me
Noones ever gone beyond for me
I can't fight my insecurites
Because they're right
I am unloved
A cursed child
a mistake at birth
A burden growing up
Last resort as an adult
I'm never a first choice
Barely Last choice
So I'll lower my voice
Let myself be used
It's what tools are for
Not like I'll ever be beautiful
Why did you like me
Why did you sleep with me
Just desperate for any company
Found someone new
No surprise
Already used to the lies
No boy will love me
Nor any friend
But they'll sure pretend
Can't blame them
I don't even love me
filled with self pity
Years on repeat
Everyone leaves me
Always shamelessly
Not one soul
Would walk one extra step
To help me as I wept
Nor does anyone
Find me worth
Anything but a empty purse
I am unloved
Yet i exist
Why did god make me
So ******* helpless
Jan 28, 2019
Jan 28, 2019 at 12:40 AM UTC
I'm in denial
That anyone loves me
It's not paranoia
I know the truth
It echoes in my head
As tears fall onto my bed
Nobody cares
I'm just a tool to use
For them to get ahead
Noones ever loved me
Noones ever gone beyond for me
I can't fight my insecurites
Because they're right
I am unloved
A cursed child
a mistake at birth
A burden growing up
Last resort as an adult
I'm never a first choice
Barely Last choice
So I'll lower my voice
Let myself be used
It's what tools are for
Not like I'll ever be beautiful
Why did you like me
Why did you sleep with me
Just desperate for any company
Found someone new
No surprise
Already used to the lies
No boy will love me
Nor any friend
But they'll sure pretend
Can't blame them
I don't even love me
filled with self pity
Years on repeat
Everyone leaves me
Always shamelessly
Not one soul
Would walk one extra step
To help me as I wept
Nor does anyone
Find me worth
Anything but a empty purse
I am unloved
Yet i exist
Why did god make me
So ******* helpless
This is a ****** mess of words but yeah hey atleast i know why ive been crying all day. All my thoughts and everything thats been happening has been echoing in my head that im alone. Im never a first choice and I'm only around for people who are desperate. They all leave me for someone better. Always. I guess my mom loves me at least.
If she didn't id have killee myself already lol
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