just finished crying
it's weird when i was because now i'm thinking,
was it worth it to cry over that?
over them?
they were both making me so ******* mad
they still are
i hate both of them right now
i probably won't tomorrow
for whatever reason...
i know i won't
i want to
but then again,
i want a lot of things
i want to scream, "fuck you,"
to everyone and everything
that's ever hurt my friends
i want to burn it into the minds
of people i should love
yet i don't
not right now, at least
i might do it tonight
it's so hard
to hold on
i can feel my grip on life
slipping between my fingers
like water
or sand
i know a lot of you would probably want me to keep holding on
but is it so wrong of me to admit
that i actually can't?
that i'm weak and tired?
it's not just what happened tonight
it's what's been happening
for years
goodbye, i hope
May 11
May 11, 2026 at 9:06 PM UTC
just finished crying
it's weird when i was because now i'm thinking,
was it worth it to cry over that?
over them?
they were both making me so ******* mad
they still are
i hate both of them right now
i probably won't tomorrow
for whatever reason...
i know i won't
i want to
but then again,
i want a lot of things
i want to scream, "fuck you,"
to everyone and everything
that's ever hurt my friends
i want to burn it into the minds
of people i should love
yet i don't
not right now, at least
i might do it tonight
it's so hard
to hold on
i can feel my grip on life
slipping between my fingers
like water
or sand
i know a lot of you would probably want me to keep holding on
but is it so wrong of me to admit
that i actually can't?
that i'm weak and tired?
it's not just what happened tonight
it's what's been happening
for years
goodbye, i hope
it probably won't work
no one i know in person will see this until a lot after, probably
update:
it didn't work, i promise i'm fine
wouldn't be surprised if i imagined this whole thing
i'm really tired lol
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