Once I had a dream
to join the navy
to sail away from the noise
to breathe where the world feels free.
But here the noise never sleeps
the air feels endlessly heavy
every moment slowly
draining the life out of me.
Sometimes it feels
this place is not where I should be
so I search for a quiet road
that might lead me to live peacefully.
Yet life keeps sending
suffering I didn’t seek
disappointments and hardships
making the strong feel weak.
Moments come like suffocation
like there is no air to breathe
self-doubt whispers slowly
until hope starts to leave.
Burnout, despair
anguish I silently keep
betrayal from voices
that once felt so deep.
I blamed the world
the people surrounding me
because some pain in the heart
cannot be spoken free.
I asked God softly
“Why does this happen to me?”
not knowing He was preparing
something hidden I couldn’t see.
So I carried the pressure
quietly within me,
while they kept saying
“Just stay quiet and you’ll be fine, you’ll see.”
But honestly all I wanted in truth
was someone to just listen to me,
not nod with empty faces
while judging silently.
They nodded their heads
as if they could see,
but inside their sympathy
was only a polite fraud to me.
Mar 14
Mar 14, 2026 at 6:38 PM UTC
Once I had a dream
to join the navy
to sail away from the noise
to breathe where the world feels free.
But here the noise never sleeps
the air feels endlessly heavy
every moment slowly
draining the life out of me.
Sometimes it feels
this place is not where I should be
so I search for a quiet road
that might lead me to live peacefully.
Yet life keeps sending
suffering I didn’t seek
disappointments and hardships
making the strong feel weak.
Moments come like suffocation
like there is no air to breathe
self-doubt whispers slowly
until hope starts to leave.
Burnout, despair
anguish I silently keep
betrayal from voices
that once felt so deep.
I blamed the world
the people surrounding me
because some pain in the heart
cannot be spoken free.
I asked God softly
“Why does this happen to me?”
not knowing He was preparing
something hidden I couldn’t see.
So I carried the pressure
quietly within me,
while they kept saying
“Just stay quiet and you’ll be fine, you’ll see.”
But honestly all I wanted in truth
was someone to just listen to me,
not nod with empty faces
while judging silently.
They nodded their heads
as if they could see,
but inside their sympathy
was only a polite fraud to me.
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