Tear-stained cheeks stare back at me
Blotchy and burning in the mirror
As the daggers I threw at you
Came flying back to meet me
When I cried at the sight
Of my waist and hips
I would always depreciate
Your face, body, and lips
The way I’d splatter
The blood from my wounds onto you
As if my pain was an excuse
To hurt a child like you
And now I feel my face
Shifting into something new
Melting, molding into
those who hurt me once before
Now I’m yearning for
A trenchant blade wrapped in lace
So I could excise the rot
From my infected core
I miss the sweetness I used to hold
The joys I used to spread around
But now I’ve run so cold
So I don’t speak a sound
I’m so sick of myself
I wish I’d praised you growing up
Building you proud and vibrant
And yet I shattered how you used to admire me
During your first memories in childhood
I pressed a sizzling red stamp
Onto your self-worth
And yet you still followed me
There’s no string of words I could ever say
To make any of your pain go away
What’s done is done
Maybe the solution to this problem is my death
Because this is the only solution left.
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 4:58 AM UTC
Tear-stained cheeks stare back at me
Blotchy and burning in the mirror
As the daggers I threw at you
Came flying back to meet me
When I cried at the sight
Of my waist and hips
I would always depreciate
Your face, body, and lips
The way I’d splatter
The blood from my wounds onto you
As if my pain was an excuse
To hurt a child like you
And now I feel my face
Shifting into something new
Melting, molding into
those who hurt me once before
Now I’m yearning for
A trenchant blade wrapped in lace
So I could excise the rot
From my infected core
I miss the sweetness I used to hold
The joys I used to spread around
But now I’ve run so cold
So I don’t speak a sound
I’m so sick of myself
I wish I’d praised you growing up
Building you proud and vibrant
And yet I shattered how you used to admire me
During your first memories in childhood
I pressed a sizzling red stamp
Onto your self-worth
And yet you still followed me
There’s no string of words I could ever say
To make any of your pain go away
What’s done is done
Maybe the solution to this problem is my death
Because this is the only solution left.
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