Believe me, if I say that it hurts to look in the mirror and not recognize yourself
Believe me, if I say it hurts to look at it from afar, and see how everything goes wrong
Believe me, if I say that it hurts to leave your skin, and feel that something dies
Believe me, if I tremble, believe me, if I shut up, let me burn and believe my faults
Let out the rage that I have stored since I was a child
Let me cry and tear my inner world into pieces looking for love
Look for a memory lost in the mind of which you do not remember having lived it
And you will only find a half-broken clock from so much going back to see oblivion
Tell my four walls that I no longer fear the closet monster
That I only need to go four steps to contemplate another monster daily
Tell my four walls that they are not as big as expected
Outside you find any problems, you see how they begin, and not how they end
Tell your sleeping chest to take courage, and beat harder
That sometimes a sigh can **** you instead of death
And I don't know how many times I said it, I don't know how many times I have left
I don't know how many times I pretended to be a being that for being what it is, never threw everything out
Do you feel that time stops and you hear yourself thinking? You've got it
You're talking to your other half that you never want to have met
I know it seems incredible that at this moment, silence is torturing you
And it may be the punishment we deserve for not knowing how to appreciate it
Don't ask me, I don't understand. Now I'm the ******* who prays
I am the deluded one who looks up at the sky thinking that feats might happen
I look for the perfect excuse to smile when surrounded by people
And I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious
Get inside, I'll open the door for you. It's my head, forgive the mess
You make yourself comfortable while you see how I can not find something that comforts
Sit down and have something, that while I will lose the north
Knowing that watching life go by, I found my place, but never a support
Hey be strong, today you are not alone. Today you are against all your buts
You know you've always been able to escape against all odds
Remember that one day you swore that one day you would be unforgettable for the whole world
And the passage of time has helped you see that the little indelible that exists is fear
Fear of falling, fear of losing, fear of moving forward to go back
Afraid to feel brave, act hot, and ***** it up again
Fear of forgetting how to take care of yourself, of not feeling you anymore, of seeing you and leaving you
Get off the train you managed to catch, thinking that that train was going nowhere
And I know it's fun to see me pour myself, I feel this fear, and you will keep laughing watching me
Making me feel like my escape is always slipping away, and you keep ruining me
Making my life miserable, trying your best to hurt me
Making me throw away the effortless effort of a lifetime
I know that this is not life, and that life is leaving me,
If I keep waiting for something that won't come
If I stay still, it will be impossible to move forward
I know I have to loosen the rope behind me
I know you have to live, and this is the life they give you
If you waste this one, you won't have anymore.
Never be afraid if you don't know where you are.
You just run, and never look back
Let out the anger that I have stored since I was a child.
Tell my four walls that I no longer fear the closet monster
Do you feel that time stops and you hear yourself thinking? You've got it
Tell your sleeping chest to take courage, and beat harder
Tell my four walls that they are not as big as expected
And I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious
Tell the closet monster that I'm tired of hearing his ****
That I am already clear who my enemy is, and I am also clear that I know how to stop
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 1:13 PM UTC
Believe me, if I say that it hurts to look in the mirror and not recognize yourself
Believe me, if I say it hurts to look at it from afar, and see how everything goes wrong
Believe me, if I say that it hurts to leave your skin, and feel that something dies
Believe me, if I tremble, believe me, if I shut up, let me burn and believe my faults
Let out the rage that I have stored since I was a child
Let me cry and tear my inner world into pieces looking for love
Look for a memory lost in the mind of which you do not remember having lived it
And you will only find a half-broken clock from so much going back to see oblivion
Tell my four walls that I no longer fear the closet monster
That I only need to go four steps to contemplate another monster daily
Tell my four walls that they are not as big as expected
Outside you find any problems, you see how they begin, and not how they end
Tell your sleeping chest to take courage, and beat harder
That sometimes a sigh can **** you instead of death
And I don't know how many times I said it, I don't know how many times I have left
I don't know how many times I pretended to be a being that for being what it is, never threw everything out
Do you feel that time stops and you hear yourself thinking? You've got it
You're talking to your other half that you never want to have met
I know it seems incredible that at this moment, silence is torturing you
And it may be the punishment we deserve for not knowing how to appreciate it
Don't ask me, I don't understand. Now I'm the ******* who prays
I am the deluded one who looks up at the sky thinking that feats might happen
I look for the perfect excuse to smile when surrounded by people
And I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious
Get inside, I'll open the door for you. It's my head, forgive the mess
You make yourself comfortable while you see how I can not find something that comforts
Sit down and have something, that while I will lose the north
Knowing that watching life go by, I found my place, but never a support
Hey be strong, today you are not alone. Today you are against all your buts
You know you've always been able to escape against all odds
Remember that one day you swore that one day you would be unforgettable for the whole world
And the passage of time has helped you see that the little indelible that exists is fear
Fear of falling, fear of losing, fear of moving forward to go back
Afraid to feel brave, act hot, and ***** it up again
Fear of forgetting how to take care of yourself, of not feeling you anymore, of seeing you and leaving you
Get off the train you managed to catch, thinking that that train was going nowhere
And I know it's fun to see me pour myself, I feel this fear, and you will keep laughing watching me
Making me feel like my escape is always slipping away, and you keep ruining me
Making my life miserable, trying your best to hurt me
Making me throw away the effortless effort of a lifetime
I know that this is not life, and that life is leaving me,
If I keep waiting for something that won't come
If I stay still, it will be impossible to move forward
I know I have to loosen the rope behind me
I know you have to live, and this is the life they give you
If you waste this one, you won't have anymore.
Never be afraid if you don't know where you are.
You just run, and never look back
Let out the anger that I have stored since I was a child.
Tell my four walls that I no longer fear the closet monster
Do you feel that time stops and you hear yourself thinking? You've got it
Tell your sleeping chest to take courage, and beat harder
Tell my four walls that they are not as big as expected
And I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious
Tell the closet monster that I'm tired of hearing his ****
That I am already clear who my enemy is, and I am also clear that I know how to stop
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