Texas May 24: 19 children, 2 teachers killed
Buffalo May 14: 10 people killed > 3 people injured
Laguna Woods May 15: 1 person killed > 3 people wounded
Houston May 15: 2 men killed > 3 people wounded
Milwaukee May 13: 16 people wounded
Biloxi, Miss April 27: 4 people wounded > 1 dead
Brooklin April 12: 10 people wounded
Sacramento April 3: 6 people killed > 12 people wounded
Dumas Ark March 19: 1 killed > 27 people injured
Milwaukee Jan 23: 5 killed
May 27, 2022
May 27, 2022 at 10:59 AM UTC
Dearest friend,
People associate you with negativity
They see stress on your eyes
And they think I agonize in your arms
People talk without knowing they cause pain in your soul
Without knowing how valuable you are
They think my life you’ve stole
And this might be bizarre
My dearest friend,
You cure my pain
You comfort me in the worst storms
And with you I know I never be alone
May 1, 2021
May 1, 2021 at 7:02 PM UTC
There you have me in one of those days
In which nobody picks up the phone
And the walls are on you
I know there is always a way out
But knowing that everything will be better
It does not mean that I stop feeling like a mess
The years go by, the projects, the dreams
Do you remember how you wanted to be when you were little?
To grow is to realize
That life is not how you want it to be
Everything is much more complex
Responsibilities, struggles, duties
Smile when you don't feel like it
Lying so as not to hurt the people you love
Pretend when you perfectly know that they lie to you
Is it worth doing what you're supposed to
More times than you really want?
Why did I end up doing what everyone does?
If I was always supposed to feel different?
I've been a coward disguised as brave
Always aware of "what will people say"
I hide my fears to appear strong
But no more, it's time to be consistent because
Because I think I've seen it, buddy, and ...
Perhaps the key to being truly free is:
When you can laugh and mourn when needed
Be honest with yourself
Focus on what's important and forget about the noise
Perhaps the key to being truly free is:
When you can laugh and mourn when needed
Do not be obsessed with the objectives
Try to relax and live something calmer
With this topic I make myself a promise:
And it's doing whatever it takes to find solutions, not problems
I know I'm not perfect
Well, I won't punish myself anymore for not being one
I will learn to say no
To accept myself as I am, to measure the value
Because sometimes I was brave out of fear
I know it sounds strange, but you know what?
The worst of all is that it's true
Today I seek to sleep comfortably
Doesn't sound very ambitious
But trust me it's a lot
I've been studying life for years
That there is no evil that for good does not come?
That's a lie
I will focus on what is important:
In my family, my friends, my passion for art
I will accept that I have the right to be down from time to time
Because being down is human
I am not giving up on any problem
I trust myself and I can beat anything
I will fall again a million times
But I will always stand tall again
Because I realized that, oh
Oh yeah, friend, I realized that
Perhaps the key to being truly free is:
When you can laugh and mourn when needed
Be honest with yourself
Focus on what's important and forget about the noise
Perhaps the key to being truly free is:
When you can laugh and mourn when needed
Do not be obsessed with the objectives
Try to relax and live something calmer
Mar 16, 2021
Mar 16, 2021 at 6:48 PM UTC
They are memories, broken promises
They are memories and broken promises
You will say that they are only memories, dead moments
I do not deny it, they are like images that time hides
They won't have a life of their own but you gave them one
An opportunity to be part of your story
And the memories are part of your mind is something inert
Your memory after so many things is still strong
Remembering those intense moments of your life
Your first kiss, your first forbidden experience
Your first touch, your first dog, first friend
Your first girlfriend who later became an enemy
Witness your first experiences in life
You started to stumble and got up from falls
With the help of mom and dad who are there
From the first second and they have never doubted you
But the years go by and you forget things
Although there are things that are never forgotten like the smell of roses
The moments of the past fade little by little
Because there are bad memories that sometimes hit rock bottom
So deep that they make you think, reconsider
Eat your head in a sea that wants to drown you
Do you remember your first fight, your first punishment
Because I know there are promises that you have never kept
You remember your first failure, your first disappointment
Your beginnings, your first letter is still well kept
Do you remember the first time you made love
Then everything fell apart and you still remember the pain
The resentment you carry inside, the broken feelings
See that she was still with you but only in photos
That's when you remember the silly arguments
Screams for everything and nothing
You also remember the typical fights with your sister
From school friends who left without telling you anything
They go, the memories where they will go
I guess there will be a place where they will stay
And they will continue, they will continue to be there forever
Because there are things that are not forgotten even after death
Broken promises, promises that I tried to keep
I did my best to make you feel happy
But jealousy made me bitter and it always ended the same
Arguing, crying and feeling awful
And that's when your promises are useless anymore
After each puff you leave a life behind
A life that you wanted but she wanted to forget
In a drastic way and start over from scratch
I know it's difficult my heart has already stopped beating
For someone that I loved and that is still inside me
And I keep getting mad every day thinking about this
Thinking of a maybe that never existed
And I cry alone, I feel great anguish inside
I want another chance even though I know I don't deserve it
And I can't sleep, you stole my life
And I still think of you even though my bed is empty
The fault is mine for trusting who should not
Well, a colleague has failed me, guess who?
And it is that based on sticks I became suspicious
But I still believe in you even if you have forgotten me
In memories of your heart I am still
From afar you can see me in my fantasy crying
Like a child, like a newborn baby
Memories are just things from a lost past
In the present there is no more to live day by day
Keep going, smash it all in this melody
Just like the broken promises you tried to keep
But you failed like always even though you tried to correct
The intention was good, you put everything on your side
Although now you do not appreciate this
I know you'll appreciate it sooner or later
Promises that leave empty somewhere
And it's never the same again
Feb 13, 2021
Feb 13, 2021 at 7:58 AM UTC
I wake up not wanting another day, and it will be the last
Few, believe me, today my Eden arrives I assume it and I do not doubt
And I swear, my dead soul warns from my heart
It is not a threat, it is a lie that ended up being true
I left the door open and a half-written note
It was difficult to read
"Goodbye mom and dad," said on it
I came out barefoot, without strength, without desire
I imagined myself on the ground, dead, and no one was crying
I walk down a lonely street, everything is dark and it rains
The streetlights watch me and the passage of time hurts me
The edge of my blade squeezes me, it's her
I will reach the end the easy way, life is not beautiful
I just want to be alone now
In a labyrinth with no way out, I stopped asking God for help
I speak, with my conscience alone
She asks me to pull the trigger and I'm afraid to say goodbye
I'm sorry I failed you one more time
I've noticed the shame when looking in the mirror, mom
Forgive me, I beg you, I do not know if I explain myself
I'm sitting on the railing of a seventh floor
But, I'm already dead inside and I'm tired
I'm sick of living always running from the past
I was a coward, I gave up more than once I was about
I write this incomplete story in my notebook, I don't even fight anymore
Blank pages tinted the red of my blood
I don't deserve a tear, it's my suicide note
And I'm late, I signed a document with Satan
To free myself, I just have to jump straight away
I jump, jump into a void that never ends
My life passes through my eyes and time stops
To avoid seeing my face anymore, shoot me.
My soul cries out to get out of my body now
I feel like I'm already dead
In a world of the blind, one-eyed king
I pass through the liner the LP to port
It's true, I have nothing to give or receive
People I alert you, I live speechless
And I hardly write, something is messing up my mind
I feel like an adopted son
Too impulsive, they tell me
Captive of the negative
If flying is the end
If flying is the end
I better understand the lies, after this interval
I gift rhymes, with my shark mouth
In the form of intimate words without pantomime
If you don't have the Z puck, steal it
But I don't want to live anymore
It's too hard!
When I die, spit on my grave in no rush
I have cast the spell
Of eternal stupidity
I feel the stiffness in my muscles
It is liberating to live without a future
Feeling betrayal makes me die prematurely
It's pure poison what I feel, I swear
With blood rage, I only knew how to ask for forgiveness
When I was immature
Tell my mother that I always loved her and that I'm sorry
To my bro that looks for my words in the wind when it blows
To those who wished my bad, I wish them to double
For having shattered a noble heart
I jump, jump into a void that never ends
My life passes through my eyes and time stops
To avoid seeing my face anymore, shoot me.
My soul cries out to get out of its body now
I am alone in a silence that bothers and I scream
Hear my last word, read my last writing
Pay attention to me, I only ask for that, I need it
Drops of sweat fall from my eyes on my suicide note
I'm sorry I can't say more
Few will cry, but how many will rejoice
I saw my name on a tombstone and it didn't even seem strange to me
How many loads have I carried for so few years
There's nothing holding me back
I've been dead for so long inside of me there is nothing
I'm just another body, blown by the wind
So violent that fate blows
No witness, no friends, no motive left
I just walk the road, I know that at the gates of heaven
There is no room for this pilgrim
God seems to be a lie, today I will know if it is true
That after death, there is another life
Today is Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday maybe maybe Thursday
I don't know why but in my eyes it no longer rains
Your memory may keep me alive
If exile does not want to send me straight to oblivion
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 8:37 AM UTC
It's a big bang blast
That is a sand erosion
It's the god being the stigma
Of his supreme creation
It is the light that always signs
Like a sun that burns itself
Is the man being an enigma
From its own ecosystem
It's people's fear and it's their source of pleasure
Another day that the next doesn't feel like yesterday
Is the girl who senses that she has become a woman
And it is the girl from the West who has stopped growing
It's the rivetless anchor of the paper boat
Is to tell him to leave and write "stay"
It's the water when it rains with its tap dance
And it's the air that moves it where no one else sees it
It is the Eiffel Tower and Pisa and it is the Peruvian Cuzco
The pyramid of Giza slipping your hands
It is the Great Wall of China and it is the Petra of Jordanians
It is the Taj Mahal of India and it is the Roman Colosseum
They are the great wonders that precede the human
They are the bloods, they are the splinter, they are the tyrant's chair
It is his time and his blade the **** on the landing
An old man being young and it's Beethoven with his piano
It is the seed that emerged from the new green leaves
That in autumn they are wounds and in summer they are paths
They are small goodbyes, they are the big ones that we have left
That's what life is about, that's what a poem is about
It's a decade, a year, it's a day, it's a minute
It's all the time I invested in getting to know myself, paying off
It's the smoke that I tried to sell myself
It is the great luxury of the rebel who works while everyone sleeps
It is the Yin filling a sea of tears for others
Being unable to remove the disguise and not looking back
It's the Yang, thirsty, dying, and out of breath
He's the tin man looking for his feelings
It's the ego's game, it's a blind man's creed
It is the I want and I cannot, it is he I refuse and it is fear
That book that always smells like new when you open it
It is to leave it for later without knowing if there is a later
Believe in the truth, fill empty consciences
It is swearing loyalty to me and always keeping what I promise
Tell those crazy things that you would never reveal
And it is that even the purest soul has disgusting secrets
It is the hunger for knowledge, the taste of it is never too late
The hipster artist who does it all in a big way
It is to lower the stars, remove heaven and earth
Is to be a sinner and throw the first stone
It is a love that has exceeded all my expectations
A good friend who made me change my perspective
With the undressed soul, breaking the schemes
That's what life is about, that's what this poem is about
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 9:21 AM UTC
Rationality is that human capacity that allows us to think
To evaluate and act through the use of reason
This characteristic is supposed to be what differentiates us from animals
But the reality that my eyes see makes me keep asking myself this same question over and over again
Who are the real animals here?
Isn't it animal abuse?
You ask a bullfighter who thinks it's normal to **** for money
You will say that animals do not suffer, right?
Stick a sword in your back and maybe then you can talk
I'm glad when I see a goring all over your mouth
I shot everyone who beat a seal
To then go-to fashion and not crazy would you tear your skin to dress even if you were masochistic
And this goes for the one who threw puppies into the river, will you be able to do the same when you grow up with your children?
Today violence is fun
I would make myself a ***** coat like you but not mink
The poacher deserves the gallows, it is not for survival,
So we are the most primitive beings
There is talk of evolution and every day I see the news the cold blood of the one who has no heart
In Spain, bullfighting is art, for me a torture
What a disgusting country that considers its culture
Based on real events just why we exist
Rational animals you can call us killers
How much son of a ***** is on the loose
Anyone who mistreats an animal deserved to be dead
Or away from the world killing each other
The most dangerous on this planet is us
Your inferiority complex is bigger every day, they would never do it to you, coward!
If you abandon him, it is because he is no longer a cute puppy as before
You disgust me and it makes me sad to see so many human beings without blood in their veins
I ask for more condemnation, the man between cages and chains
Sometimes I think I wish we were their dinner
Trained, caged, exploited in circuses
As easy to see as putting on Tele Cinco, for you entertainment and fun
Torture, suffering is morbid and morbid sells on television
Stuffed heads are a trophy in your living room
I ask for salvation for the whales of Japan
We don't deserve forgiveness, our extinction is my wish
Rational animals, humans I don't think so
How much son of a ***** is on the loose
Anyone who mistreats an animal deserved to be dead
Or away from the world killing each other
The most dangerous on this planet are us
I am fed up and manifest, I suffer when I see an animal suffering
That we are able to do all this of our own free will
Multinationals that test their products on animals that cannot defend themselves and it is not fair
Be well informed of what you buy, because the blood spilled will be on your hands if you support them
Public executions if they escape from the slaughterhouse, no tranquilizer darts?, it is an unnecessary waste of money
I call for us not to think that we are not capable of doing anything
For that very reason I write this poem
I want to make the most ******* animal reflect
Whoever tortures for fun, the human being
Reflect! If you are with me, just raise your hand
Feb 6, 2021
Feb 6, 2021 at 10:40 PM UTC
**** I'm super fat"
"But girl what happened to your body? If you had never bothered about it"
**** look at me, well look, it doesn't matter you don't understand it anyway"
"But what are you doing?"
Look in the mirror and tell me if the eye is deceiving you
It's just a mirage that will hurt you
See your reflection in the water when you bathe
Look at your weight on the scale after one year
Fat, I know it hurts you
But the solution is not to lock yourself in the bathroom
I know what you think when you look at your reflection
But your enemy is the people, not the mirror
That complex is the object of ridicule
Sticking your fingers down your throat doesn't help
If others hurt you because you do it too
Is to agree with the dumbest in the class
They are mirages out of realism,
Fight to love yourself or you will fall into the abyss
You are the make-me laugh when you go out to a party
People watch you on the street and it bothers you
You feel ashamed and when you try on dresses you scratch yourself,
Fed up! of having to order another size
On the beach, you don't expose your body because you get depressed
You throw in the towel when you see those movie bodies
You want to lose weight at any cost
They can hear the arches through the doorway if they are silent
Your mother worries and you don't care
You feel your patience to lose weight is declining
You can't stop vomiting, you feel pretty
You see in the magazines the bodies you want and they catch you
But it's not you, it's just what you want to be
So that others show a little more interest in you
But it's that society is like that, it's sad
Don't trust your reflection or what you saw
Self-conscious, I see it in your eyes
Wanting it all, all without having to do anything
Looking for an easy way
Inside that body hides a fragile heart
I know that it is easy to say for the one who does not suffer it and the one who does not feel it
But the eye creates a mirage that lies to you
"I don't know, I think you shouldn't, there are other ways"
"Shut the **** up okay? You're not in my skin!"
Rubbing your uvula is more attractive to you
Much easier and faster than deciding
If you do diet or do sports because that's hard
And also you do not dare to bet if it is not on insurance
You just want a nice body
That they see you with different eyes and recognize your type
But the beauty is inside
Although you are not satisfied with being told that as a person you are better
You value yourself little and your self-esteem touches the ground
Fashion is the lure and you are the fish that bite the hook
Image is not everything to everyone
There are other methods to lose weight, there are other ways
You have a nickname that they do not name when you are present
You pretend you don't care what they comment
But you want to prove something that you shouldn't
But I understand your helplessness being just a girl
Boys reject me because you're not pretty
Crying days your diary tells it
A closer way than I can understand
Any of us seeing you suffer like this, they will cry
You want to be satisfied and eat and return the calories
You obsess over your body and weigh yourself every day
Every hour you feel little evolution
Your friend cries because she can't believe your situation
You do not think to stop until you are finally happy
And that your weight must be around 70 pounds
Low self-esteem and you don't feel confidence
Zero personality and that's depressing
No need to stand out aesthetically
You have always been totally dependent
Of the thought that others have towards her
Her mind is weak, she just wants to be beautiful
Every day that passes you look thinner
You still look the same even though you are worse off
Your friend advised you and you didn't want to listen to her
You order little food and leave more than half now
You weigh 60 pounds and you still look fat
But it's not the mirror, it's your mind that warps
The one that gives shape to that false image you see
Mirages is what your mind wants to believe
Who decides and who gives meaning to the perfect
If being superficial for me is just another flaw
The imperfect human being
The machine that will destroy this world with its own hands
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 1:57 PM UTC
Believe me, if I say that it hurts to look in the mirror and not recognize yourself
Believe me, if I say it hurts to look at it from afar, and see how everything goes wrong
Believe me, if I say that it hurts to leave your skin, and feel that something dies
Believe me, if I tremble, believe me, if I shut up, let me burn and believe my faults
Let out the rage that I have stored since I was a child
Let me cry and tear my inner world into pieces looking for love
Look for a memory lost in the mind of which you do not remember having lived it
And you will only find a half-broken clock from so much going back to see oblivion
Tell my four walls that I no longer fear the closet monster
That I only need to go four steps to contemplate another monster daily
Tell my four walls that they are not as big as expected
Outside you find any problems, you see how they begin, and not how they end
Tell your sleeping chest to take courage, and beat harder
That sometimes a sigh can **** you instead of death
And I don't know how many times I said it, I don't know how many times I have left
I don't know how many times I pretended to be a being that for being what it is, never threw everything out
Do you feel that time stops and you hear yourself thinking? You've got it
You're talking to your other half that you never want to have met
I know it seems incredible that at this moment, silence is torturing you
And it may be the punishment we deserve for not knowing how to appreciate it
Don't ask me, I don't understand. Now I'm the ******* who prays
I am the deluded one who looks up at the sky thinking that feats might happen
I look for the perfect excuse to smile when surrounded by people
And I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious
Get inside, I'll open the door for you. It's my head, forgive the mess
You make yourself comfortable while you see how I can not find something that comforts
Sit down and have something, that while I will lose the north
Knowing that watching life go by, I found my place, but never a support
Hey be strong, today you are not alone. Today you are against all your buts
You know you've always been able to escape against all odds
Remember that one day you swore that one day you would be unforgettable for the whole world
And the passage of time has helped you see that the little indelible that exists is fear
Fear of falling, fear of losing, fear of moving forward to go back
Afraid to feel brave, act hot, and ***** it up again
Fear of forgetting how to take care of yourself, of not feeling you anymore, of seeing you and leaving you
Get off the train you managed to catch, thinking that that train was going nowhere
And I know it's fun to see me pour myself, I feel this fear, and you will keep laughing watching me
Making me feel like my escape is always slipping away, and you keep ruining me
Making my life miserable, trying your best to hurt me
Making me throw away the effortless effort of a lifetime
I know that this is not life, and that life is leaving me,
If I keep waiting for something that won't come
If I stay still, it will be impossible to move forward
I know I have to loosen the rope behind me
I know you have to live, and this is the life they give you
If you waste this one, you won't have anymore.
Never be afraid if you don't know where you are.
You just run, and never look back
Let out the anger that I have stored since I was a child.
Tell my four walls that I no longer fear the closet monster
Do you feel that time stops and you hear yourself thinking? You've got it
Tell your sleeping chest to take courage, and beat harder
Tell my four walls that they are not as big as expected
And I don't have the courage to assume the truth instead of judging and denying the obvious
Tell the closet monster that I'm tired of hearing his ****
That I am already clear who my enemy is, and I am also clear that I know how to stop
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 1:13 PM UTC
(This poem is directed to an specific public ATHEISTS, I may ask you not to take it really serious)
Today I will be the voice of the devil and he will tell his stories
And even if I don't want to, it's in my body
He lives confusing the people I meet
Saying that God does not exist or that he is violent
What's up to everyone, I'm Lucifer, I introduce myself
I come from the deepest and in hell I find myself
Today I come to clarify things, such as the why of this pit
Because they say I **** people when I am not violent
It all started with that god-emperor
That proclaims equality but was always a dictator
I saw that my brothers did not know what God was like
Who gave them candy with stunned filling
I pretended that I ate them because I knew what God was like
He was like a coin, with two faces and one taste
Then I started to question him, but he never answered
God denied me the answers and called me a sinner
I started gathering my people like a thinker does
And with a flow of words, I explained God's plan
They did not believe, they did not listen, they did not understand this voice
They accused me, sentenced me, and here God has sent me
When Adam and Eve arrived in paradise
Like the PlayStation snake, I slid across the floor
I went unnoticed, or that God wanted it that way
I warned the guys that God didn't want clever
He just wanted obedience, more like a slave deal
The first troll in history, putting up an "evil" tree
Although it really wasn't that bad, just a tree in disguise
Well, it gave knowledge of good and evil, oh how bad
Today I will be the voice of the devil and he will tell his stories
And even if I don't want to, it's in my body
Live confusing the people I meet
Saying that God does not exist or that he is violent
Follow me in the story
Adam and Eve were not bad, for God to know is bad
And when they found out what was good and what was bad
God seeing himself betrayed because he had to expel them
Merciful God? Savior from sin?
If you have condemned the world for discovering your deceptions
They only ate the fruit and the punishment is to expel them
But not only them but all humans
Then they blame me that I was always the bad guy
I have not killed a human, genocides I have not commanded
I have never ordered floods nor a ****** have I touched
I haven't even tempted you to commit sins
I'm just what I've been all along
The first free thinker, but very few know that
I've always been underestimated and treated like a big fool
When I've only questioned and doing so came at a great price
I live locked in my cage, I do not punish or anything
I don't run hell, I don't buy used souls
When I watch an exorcism I just laugh out loud
Well if I had demons they wouldn't do any tricks
I don't live in disguise, I won't lie and I never cheat
I don't discriminate against people, even though I've never been a human
Africa's children die, but not because they are bad
But because God doesn't give a **** about humans ...
Today I will be the voice of the devil and he will tell his stories
And even if I don't want to, it's in my body
Live confusing the people I meet
Saying that God does not exist or that he is violent
Jan 26, 2021
Jan 26, 2021 at 1:27 PM UTC