I cannot fathom what it is about me that caught your interest
When I was far less, and far below all the rest
What made me enticing
What made me desirable
What made you change
Into something downright miserable
Maybe I was good for your ego
Something to show off
Maybe I was there for your convenience
Just barely good enough
You hurt me
Hit me
Kicked me
Casted me aside
When you were supposed to be my safe place
Why was it from you I felt the need to hide
I carry scars
Memories
Demons
Fears
But along with all this I've gained wisdom
Far beyond my years.
One of the things I never got used to
Was no longer hearing the sound of your heart beating in time with mine.
And even through everything
The sad
The happy
The joy
And the pain
I still don't think it was our time
You can argue that I'm wrong
Because I usually am
But they say fight for what you want
Am I wrong to take a stand?
I can't make you love me the way you said you would
But at the end of the day you've gone away and I can no longer remember the beautiful words you said I should.
But that's all they were, words that worked their way into my head
Caressed my thoughts
And pleased my feelings
And when you left, you left me dead.
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 5:08 AM UTC
I cannot fathom what it is about me that caught your interest
When I was far less, and far below all the rest
What made me enticing
What made me desirable
What made you change
Into something downright miserable
Maybe I was good for your ego
Something to show off
Maybe I was there for your convenience
Just barely good enough
You hurt me
Hit me
Kicked me
Casted me aside
When you were supposed to be my safe place
Why was it from you I felt the need to hide
I carry scars
Memories
Demons
Fears
But along with all this I've gained wisdom
Far beyond my years.
One of the things I never got used to
Was no longer hearing the sound of your heart beating in time with mine.
And even through everything
The sad
The happy
The joy
And the pain
I still don't think it was our time
You can argue that I'm wrong
Because I usually am
But they say fight for what you want
Am I wrong to take a stand?
I can't make you love me the way you said you would
But at the end of the day you've gone away and I can no longer remember the beautiful words you said I should.
But that's all they were, words that worked their way into my head
Caressed my thoughts
And pleased my feelings
And when you left, you left me dead.
I wish you knew just how badly you hurt me
I wish i didn't drown it all in other places
