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1. No One Knew His Name when the woman called nine eleven she said there is a guy sitting on the stoop he's dead.. the nine eleven woman, martha, said how do you know he s dead we get plenty of calls like tha t she said, the woman, said he s got flies in his eyes martha said we are gonna be right there! 2.two condoms and a crucifix when the coroner people cam e he was still sitting on the stoop still dead his breath no longer straining the winter air then they took pix and measured things rigor mortis already had set in and when they took th e pix they showed two condoms and a crucifix falling out of his pocket into the light of day the woman who found him so still she said it is strange to see such disparate things spilling out of his pocket he was still dead and i believe he s kept his state of being stubborn as he is/was he remains forevermore stilled we talked about those three things two concepts really two condoms and a crucifix and we could not figure out which he loved the most because we never heard him speak of anything but god crack *** amphetamine trinity cooh, ya know? 3. Discovery Indeed he came from wolf lake mn population 31 when he left it went down to 25 ten thousand lakes he could not imagine living there anymore but did he know at the end of the trail what was he looking for? two condoms and a xfix my god he said although he did not ever believe in such extravagance just before he went to sleep perhaps to be still forever more my god he said as the soporific hit blessed whatever was left of his short life my god he said although he was agnostic or so he said my god he could not have believed had he not heard them words himself as he grabbed the condoms and kissed the xfix or maybe it was the other way around. 4. No **** sitting on his ***** chair he put his hands between his legs reached for the **** and squeezed: yellowish stuff strained out between his fingers. his grandma slapped him, hard 5. Things Looking Up he lay down on the floor to look up the neighbor's dress he saw a pair of legs descend from pink ******* then his grandma picked him up slapped him, hard. 6. Harbinger winter flew in harsh in minnesota, battered houses, pine trees, the wide landscape into submission let the wind run whistling, whipping subservient snow, whitewhirlwinding down desolate fields and lanes one day it got so cold spit froze before it hit the ground it made a little noise midair 7. Cold Dogs one time he saw some fifteen dead dogs piled by the side of a road frozen like the rest of the landscape even as an adult he wondered what THAT had been about 8. *** Is Child's Play in the first grade he fell in love with miss renee the teacher who let him put his head down on her legs and petted his head while he glowed glowed glowed he learned to love school and read read read so ms renee would say Joe, read! and he would one time he dreamed he had *** with miss renee *** was tying something between her legs a knot of love in her ****** so how did he know about such things at five? he always wondered about that. 9. Revelation his fishing pole was gone! he looked and looked while spring time raised giant mosquitos that buzzed and buzzed about his head he never found his fishing pole he thought that maybe when you die and go to heaven god showed you in a sort of movie what had happened so you'd nod yer head and say yeh, i'd never would have guessed grandma gave it away. 10. Alone At Last say to the darkness this emptiness covers all this suffusing light scrapes away some pain some excruciating i am lucid preamble to my nevermores in plural congruent universes coexisting rapt in its own say this is a dream a vertigo a swirling metaphor for then/now/and again can days still mean something new today everyone left everyone left staring out the window at six years old he saw woods slowly fade into the night he thought they sank into an oblivious fog why didn't i go to the neighbors' house 11. Death Becomes The Fisherman the lakes were all around they said let's go see the drowned man so they went to the shore a boat with two men rowing approached you could see a hand and an arm sticking out from somebody lying on the floor someone said "hey, he s waving" close to the shore the wind brought the overpowering stink of death that shocked him because he' d not thought of "drowned" as "dead" they brought the body out to the shore covered it waiting for the coroner to show up mother and sister cried nearby neither could approach the stinking corpse he then realized that no matter what you can't kiss a rotting corpse. 12. Rubber Match the first time he met a ****** there was no formal intro he just found it in his father' s drawer filled it with water dumped it on the neighbor s' yard later on he could hear them fight 13.Prurient Discovery when he was 13 he made love to her who was 16 and all he could think about was how gross it was and wet until he came then his opinion suddenly changed for the better 14. Death Is his grandmother was sick in the MN winter cold home she coughed and coughed so she put kerosene on her back and chest he saw she got blisters he did not want to help clean them up so he hid until she was quiet for a couple of days he went to see her she was dead so he stayed drunk for a week or so until he could not stand the stink no more 15. The Beginning of the End he went to a foster home there were 5 other teenagers there the first night he went to bed someone put a pillow on his head while hands turned him over held him down pulled his pjs down 5 guys ***** him then and there the next day he ran away 16. The End of the Beginning they brought him back 23 times on the 24 he met one of the kids by the lake stuck a knife under the guys ribcage on the right side all the guy did was sigh and slide slowly down he pushed the guy into the water somehow it took weeks to find the body by then nobody could tell he'd been stabbed but none of the kids ever held him down again 17. COOH alcohol alcohol its sweet old name tells me all i need to know how spinning the world distances itself in a warm blood red haze and only a swollen torpor remains alcohol alcohol its sweet old name tells me all i need to know and not to know 18. Not Late, Just Timely time 'sss a stone a sash a thunderbolt up high a rudder a list a lisp a restless meandering time 'sss a spire a fish still below the waves a constraint a push a shove a deal a nothing time 'ssss a look a lock a rail a sunrise a fall a crack a vial time 'sss a sock a pen a handgun a radiant breeze a solid solid hand two elbows and one mouth he took his time and time took him step by step he climbed the stairs of his cognizance such as it was just this no hope i say no hope but no despair either the world sometimes it's just the way it is he understood that but what to make of this breathing hearing seeing tasting feeling smelling thinking self he knew not and in not knowing he passed the time that isss not what you think it isss time 'sss not even a ticking tocking clock just let it be he said to himself time 'sss not me yet time isss me and he took another **** 19. Luger his father came back to town one day the war had been over for a few years then they told him where he could find his father and he went and watched his father, dressed in combat rags, as he counted the fingers of his shooting hand they exchanged glances and he left got drunk and did not hear or see his father ever again. 20. Life As A Long One Night Stand the girls are many the girls are new every day they seems to look at you and you melt and then you are gone in another trip with another stranger in your bed do not say much cause *** is just another drug just cheaper and easier to get than smack 21. Epitaph he learned a song and a little dance at the emergency rooms where he got the prescription pain killers man he could lie and act and pretend so much he knew they' d really have to give him stuff cause that' s the way that things work in big city hospitals he re-membered a doc who smiled at him saying man you'll be dead soon although you think you are fooling me the only fool in this room is you he laughed cause he could not agree more put that in my tombstone he said the doc said no, you are gonna do it all by yourself 22. Lost Weekend -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- 23. Dashes and Spaces ---- -- -- - - --- -- -- - -- -- -- - - -- - -- -- - --- - - - - - -- - -- - - - --- - - -- - - -- -- -- -- ---- - - -- 24. Two Condoms at the end of the road the road the empty road the sinuous complex road the road the heavy road where lust and love entwine who knows the end or the beginning who knows alpha or omega who the what who the where who even the hidden sentient how the nothingness the emptiness of come and come and come just emptiness of not becoming he heard himself saying screaming at the end of something like a bumpy ride she was who knows who but she was you know the hole the whole the mankind whole the all embracing whole the whole hole the destination origin the one and all he said here i belong elementary i exist because of this he pounded pounded in his anguish of becoming one and whole he howled his grief intermittent as pulse wave of heart the heat of his despair the only drug that it's living protein he felt his way and then was gone from virile crisis to distant remote self acquiring its orthodoxy of despair because as he put it once you cannot ever **** yourself square the circle as it were so he accepted two trojans at the bar when a guy in the adjacent ****** said these are the best and yes we gotta protect ourselves and left the couple of rubbers by the sink and he would have washed his hands had he known how but instead put them products in his pocket a premonition of some kind of future bliss tugging the sleeve of his presentiment carving already a vast innocent tomorrow while he walked out he truly did not care 25. Crucifix at the end of the road the empty road, the road full of lies, deceit and a hunger so great it overwhelmed all else, at the end, the terminus, the appointed hour, at the end of the alpha, the omega, the in-between, the road sinuous road that led down the miriad steps to the steps on a stoop in the city of new york, at the end of a long concatenation of minutes, each ethereal, insubstantial, a construct, a vapid dream or nightmare indeed he sat down one last time with his burden of hours to dream one last warm oblivious cozy, embracing shroud, sweet balm to assuage the freezing claws of grief. in the seedy bar last night he met a blonde who said, your eyes remind me of a long ago boyfriend, he said well, he musta been one hell of a guy, she said indeed, he died in iraq, suicide, holy **** he said that is not right, she said we are all at war, daily intimate war, i think, who said we met the enemy and it's us? he did not know but understood, he said although denial is more than a river in egypt, ha ha, but they both got it since they both craved the same intoxication, the same zig-zag and feint, she said the first time i got drunk i was eleven, that was my first time for *** too, he said the first time i got drunk i too was eleven, the night had fallen i was alone in wisconsin among the wolves of winter howling their relentless wind outside, i found a bottle of the hard stuff, not beer like everybody drank i could not stand the taste it was too bitter, but gin, and i drank it convulsed at first by the shock, then not, just drinking a few more gulps and believed i had found the greatest gift on earth, the greatest warmest kindest confidant, she said you talk funny, but i understand what you are talking about, i know the allure but my hangovers, wow, he said no, i never got one, but. here is the but. i knew a limit, i was never blind blind drunk until much later in new york, she said we each have our cross to bear and laughed and dontcha just wanna do a line now ha ha, and it went on like that for quite a while. when she was leaving she said, you wanna see something funny, yeah he said, she brought out a crucifix and it was indeed jesus, his mouth open, imploring relief from his harsh dad, and he had a gold tooth, blue eyes and dreads, he laughed and said that's quite contemporary and she said wha? you don't think he looked like that? but really who knows what the truth was, he said or is, so they both lifted one in memory of the dear departed one who had caused so much trouble here on earth, but, she said, he did not mean it, here keep it and he did. later on he found his fix it was extra good **** too good in fact, and who knows, when he sat there with flies in his eyes, his life a dream, invention, make believe, whether any of the episodes were true at all, sob stories to assuage the beast of craving within, get his hand in your pocket and whether, as he sank below the surface of his tortured bliss, he saw his true light at long last.
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Apr 24, 2010
Apr 24, 2010 at 7:41 PM UTC
a nyc epic in 25 spasms
1. No One Knew His Name when the woman called nine eleven she said there is a guy sitting on the stoop he's dead.. the nine eleven woman, martha, said how do you know he s dead we get plenty of calls like tha t she said, the woman, said he s got flies in his eyes martha said we are gonna be right there! 2.two condoms and a crucifix when the coroner people cam e he was still sitting on the stoop still dead his breath no longer straining the winter air then they took pix and measured things rigor mortis already had set in and when they took th e pix they showed two condoms and a crucifix falling out of his pocket into the light of day the woman who found him so still she said it is strange to see such disparate things spilling out of his pocket he was still dead and i believe he s kept his state of being stubborn as he is/was he remains forevermore stilled we talked about those three things two concepts really two condoms and a crucifix and we could not figure out which he loved the most because we never heard him speak of anything but god crack *** amphetamine trinity cooh, ya know? 3. Discovery Indeed he came from wolf lake mn population 31 when he left it went down to 25 ten thousand lakes he could not imagine living there anymore but did he know at the end of the trail what was he looking for? two condoms and a xfix my god he said although he did not ever believe in such extravagance just before he went to sleep perhaps to be still forever more my god he said as the soporific hit blessed whatever was left of his short life my god he said although he was agnostic or so he said my god he could not have believed had he not heard them words himself as he grabbed the condoms and kissed the xfix or maybe it was the other way around. 4. No **** sitting on his ***** chair he put his hands between his legs reached for the **** and squeezed: yellowish stuff strained out between his fingers. his grandma slapped him, hard 5. Things Looking Up he lay down on the floor to look up the neighbor's dress he saw a pair of legs descend from pink ******* then his grandma picked him up slapped him, hard. 6. Harbinger winter flew in harsh in minnesota, battered houses, pine trees, the wide landscape into submission let the wind run whistling, whipping subservient snow, whitewhirlwinding down desolate fields and lanes one day it got so cold spit froze before it hit the ground it made a little noise midair 7. Cold Dogs one time he saw some fifteen dead dogs piled by the side of a road frozen like the rest of the landscape even as an adult he wondered what THAT had been about 8. *** Is Child's Play in the first grade he fell in love with miss renee the teacher who let him put his head down on her legs and petted his head while he glowed glowed glowed he learned to love school and read read read so ms renee would say Joe, read! and he would one time he dreamed he had *** with miss renee *** was tying something between her legs a knot of love in her ****** so how did he know about such things at five? he always wondered about that. 9. Revelation his fishing pole was gone! he looked and looked while spring time raised giant mosquitos that buzzed and buzzed about his head he never found his fishing pole he thought that maybe when you die and go to heaven god showed you in a sort of movie what had happened so you'd nod yer head and say yeh, i'd never would have guessed grandma gave it away. 10. Alone At Last say to the darkness this emptiness covers all this suffusing light scrapes away some pain some excruciating i am lucid preamble to my nevermores in plural congruent universes coexisting rapt in its own say this is a dream a vertigo a swirling metaphor for then/now/and again can days still mean something new today everyone left everyone left staring out the window at six years old he saw woods slowly fade into the night he thought they sank into an oblivious fog why didn't i go to the neighbors' house 11. Death Becomes The Fisherman the lakes were all around they said let's go see the drowned man so they went to the shore a boat with two men rowing approached you could see a hand and an arm sticking out from somebody lying on the floor someone said "hey, he s waving" close to the shore the wind brought the overpowering stink of death that shocked him because he' d not thought of "drowned" as "dead" they brought the body out to the shore covered it waiting for the coroner to show up mother and sister cried nearby neither could approach the stinking corpse he then realized that no matter what you can't kiss a rotting corpse. 12. Rubber Match the first time he met a ****** there was no formal intro he just found it in his father' s drawer filled it with water dumped it on the neighbor s' yard later on he could hear them fight 13.Prurient Discovery when he was 13 he made love to her who was 16 and all he could think about was how gross it was and wet until he came then his opinion suddenly changed for the better 14. Death Is his grandmother was sick in the MN winter cold home she coughed and coughed so she put kerosene on her back and chest he saw she got blisters he did not want to help clean them up so he hid until she was quiet for a couple of days he went to see her she was dead so he stayed drunk for a week or so until he could not stand the stink no more 15. The Beginning of the End he went to a foster home there were 5 other teenagers there the first night he went to bed someone put a pillow on his head while hands turned him over held him down pulled his pjs down 5 guys ***** him then and there the next day he ran away 16. The End of the Beginning they brought him back 23 times on the 24 he met one of the kids by the lake stuck a knife under the guys ribcage on the right side all the guy did was sigh and slide slowly down he pushed the guy into the water somehow it took weeks to find the body by then nobody could tell he'd been stabbed but none of the kids ever held him down again 17. COOH alcohol alcohol its sweet old name tells me all i need to know how spinning the world distances itself in a warm blood red haze and only a swollen torpor remains alcohol alcohol its sweet old name tells me all i need to know and not to know 18. Not Late, Just Timely time 'sss a stone a sash a thunderbolt up high a rudder a list a lisp a restless meandering time 'sss a spire a fish still below the waves a constraint a push a shove a deal a nothing time 'ssss a look a lock a rail a sunrise a fall a crack a vial time 'sss a sock a pen a handgun a radiant breeze a solid solid hand two elbows and one mouth he took his time and time took him step by step he climbed the stairs of his cognizance such as it was just this no hope i say no hope but no despair either the world sometimes it's just the way it is he understood that but what to make of this breathing hearing seeing tasting feeling smelling thinking self he knew not and in not knowing he passed the time that isss not what you think it isss time 'sss not even a ticking tocking clock just let it be he said to himself time 'sss not me yet time isss me and he took another **** 19. Luger his father came back to town one day the war had been over for a few years then they told him where he could find his father and he went and watched his father, dressed in combat rags, as he counted the fingers of his shooting hand they exchanged glances and he left got drunk and did not hear or see his father ever again. 20. Life As A Long One Night Stand the girls are many the girls are new every day they seems to look at you and you melt and then you are gone in another trip with another stranger in your bed do not say much cause *** is just another drug just cheaper and easier to get than smack 21. Epitaph he learned a song and a little dance at the emergency rooms where he got the prescription pain killers man he could lie and act and pretend so much he knew they' d really have to give him stuff cause that' s the way that things work in big city hospitals he re-membered a doc who smiled at him saying man you'll be dead soon although you think you are fooling me the only fool in this room is you he laughed cause he could not agree more put that in my tombstone he said the doc said no, you are gonna do it all by yourself 22. Lost Weekend -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- 23. Dashes and Spaces ---- -- -- - - --- -- -- - -- -- -- - - -- - -- -- - --- - - - - - -- - -- - - - --- - - -- - - -- -- -- -- ---- - - -- 24. Two Condoms at the end of the road the road the empty road the sinuous complex road the road the heavy road where lust and love entwine who knows the end or the beginning who knows alpha or omega who the what who the where who even the hidden sentient how the nothingness the emptiness of come and come and come just emptiness of not becoming he heard himself saying screaming at the end of something like a bumpy ride she was who knows who but she was you know the hole the whole the mankind whole the all embracing whole the whole hole the destination origin the one and all he said here i belong elementary i exist because of this he pounded pounded in his anguish of becoming one and whole he howled his grief intermittent as pulse wave of heart the heat of his despair the only drug that it's living protein he felt his way and then was gone from virile crisis to distant remote self acquiring its orthodoxy of despair because as he put it once you cannot ever **** yourself square the circle as it were so he accepted two trojans at the bar when a guy in the adjacent ****** said these are the best and yes we gotta protect ourselves and left the couple of rubbers by the sink and he would have washed his hands had he known how but instead put them products in his pocket a premonition of some kind of future bliss tugging the sleeve of his presentiment carving already a vast innocent tomorrow while he walked out he truly did not care 25. Crucifix at the end of the road the empty road, the road full of lies, deceit and a hunger so great it overwhelmed all else, at the end, the terminus, the appointed hour, at the end of the alpha, the omega, the in-between, the road sinuous road that led down the miriad steps to the steps on a stoop in the city of new york, at the end of a long concatenation of minutes, each ethereal, insubstantial, a construct, a vapid dream or nightmare indeed he sat down one last time with his burden of hours to dream one last warm oblivious cozy, embracing shroud, sweet balm to assuage the freezing claws of grief. in the seedy bar last night he met a blonde who said, your eyes remind me of a long ago boyfriend, he said well, he musta been one hell of a guy, she said indeed, he died in iraq, suicide, holy **** he said that is not right, she said we are all at war, daily intimate war, i think, who said we met the enemy and it's us? he did not know but understood, he said although denial is more than a river in egypt, ha ha, but they both got it since they both craved the same intoxication, the same zig-zag and feint, she said the first time i got drunk i was eleven, that was my first time for *** too, he said the first time i got drunk i too was eleven, the night had fallen i was alone in wisconsin among the wolves of winter howling their relentless wind outside, i found a bottle of the hard stuff, not beer like everybody drank i could not stand the taste it was too bitter, but gin, and i drank it convulsed at first by the shock, then not, just drinking a few more gulps and believed i had found the greatest gift on earth, the greatest warmest kindest confidant, she said you talk funny, but i understand what you are talking about, i know the allure but my hangovers, wow, he said no, i never got one, but. here is the but. i knew a limit, i was never blind blind drunk until much later in new york, she said we each have our cross to bear and laughed and dontcha just wanna do a line now ha ha, and it went on like that for quite a while. when she was leaving she said, you wanna see something funny, yeah he said, she brought out a crucifix and it was indeed jesus, his mouth open, imploring relief from his harsh dad, and he had a gold tooth, blue eyes and dreads, he laughed and said that's quite contemporary and she said wha? you don't think he looked like that? but really who knows what the truth was, he said or is, so they both lifted one in memory of the dear departed one who had caused so much trouble here on earth, but, she said, he did not mean it, here keep it and he did. later on he found his fix it was extra good **** too good in fact, and who knows, when he sat there with flies in his eyes, his life a dream, invention, make believe, whether any of the episodes were true at all, sob stories to assuage the beast of craving within, get his hand in your pocket and whether, as he sank below the surface of his tortured bliss, he saw his true light at long last.
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wil-wynn
Ecuadorean
Apr 24, 2010
Apr 24, 2010 at 7:41 PM UTC
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