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“Oh, you sorry fool You’ve cut your fingers Plucking on my puppet strings AGAIN!! When will you learn? Souls like his Were not meant for souls like yours He will live his whole entire life And not once think twice About the color of your eyes” I jokingly tell my friends That my daddy issues are The root of these crushes on older men But they don’t know the hurt Behind those words It is hard to explain how The man I'm sleeping with Is/could be my Dad! Because of this I now have Borderline Personality Disorder But I can't Exactly talk about About what happened I try to tell my friends, they Say “Well every teenager has mood swings” But they have Not seen How crazy I can be! I warn boys I am crazy they laugh and say They’ve dealt with crazy Girls before I am too embarrassed To tell them when They forget to say goodnight to me It feels like the harshest abandonment, The cruelest betrayal, And I not knowing How to deal with this Constant denial How do you explain that to someone? so blissfully unaware, This boy I love with all all my heart And then some Says he will fight for me And I so badly Want to believe in his promise But he does not know It will be a battle against himself Because I Do not know how to be with someone Because I Am better off alone Because I Ruin people I have a system, you see. I let boys put Their tongue in my mouth Their hands on my chest I let myself believe Ill fill the hollow space in my gut At least take my mind off of it And I always make sure They like me more Than I like them Because I cannot be caught Off guard again I remember the day I told myself I didn’t need my dad He has tried to work his Way back into my life And I hated him for it With all of my being I had never despised a human so much so I let go I stopped Talking to him To this Day I still Cry he still has not said sorry Even if I'd still Feel Nothing The memories are crushing Feels so Heavy I cannot forgive my dad For what he did To me at 2 Years old And I have never felt worse about Anything in my life!! So I take a silver spoon And dig out the parts of me That still hurt And I let men crawl inside And I let them build a home So I can finally be good for something All my friends Growing up Called me a **** ***** And I want to scream They don’t understand This is the only way I feel I am worth anything This is the only thing I can feel If I could have it any other way I would But this is the way things are And this Is the way they will continue to be. #daddy #issues **** *** #men
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Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 4:44 AM UTC
Daddy issues
“Oh, you sorry fool You’ve cut your fingers Plucking on my puppet strings AGAIN!! When will you learn? Souls like his Were not meant for souls like yours He will live his whole entire life And not once think twice About the color of your eyes” I jokingly tell my friends That my daddy issues are The root of these crushes on older men But they don’t know the hurt Behind those words It is hard to explain how The man I'm sleeping with Is/could be my Dad! Because of this I now have Borderline Personality Disorder But I can't Exactly talk about About what happened I try to tell my friends, they Say “Well every teenager has mood swings” But they have Not seen How crazy I can be! I warn boys I am crazy they laugh and say They’ve dealt with crazy Girls before I am too embarrassed To tell them when They forget to say goodnight to me It feels like the harshest abandonment, The cruelest betrayal, And I not knowing How to deal with this Constant denial How do you explain that to someone? so blissfully unaware, This boy I love with all all my heart And then some Says he will fight for me And I so badly Want to believe in his promise But he does not know It will be a battle against himself Because I Do not know how to be with someone Because I Am better off alone Because I Ruin people I have a system, you see. I let boys put Their tongue in my mouth Their hands on my chest I let myself believe Ill fill the hollow space in my gut At least take my mind off of it And I always make sure They like me more Than I like them Because I cannot be caught Off guard again I remember the day I told myself I didn’t need my dad He has tried to work his Way back into my life And I hated him for it With all of my being I had never despised a human so much so I let go I stopped Talking to him To this Day I still Cry he still has not said sorry Even if I'd still Feel Nothing The memories are crushing Feels so Heavy I cannot forgive my dad For what he did To me at 2 Years old And I have never felt worse about Anything in my life!! So I take a silver spoon And dig out the parts of me That still hurt And I let men crawl inside And I let them build a home So I can finally be good for something All my friends Growing up Called me a **** ***** And I want to scream They don’t understand This is the only way I feel I am worth anything This is the only thing I can feel If I could have it any other way I would But this is the way things are And this Is the way they will continue to be. #daddy #issues **** *** #men
This is a poem pretty much related to my birth dad, he destroyed me and to this day I have problems, hope you like
#daddyissues#destroyed#memories#tough
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Strongereveryday24
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Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 4:44 AM UTC
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