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I’m fine is what you start to say when you’re not, but you’re sick of not fine And you don’t want to be a downer And you’re sick of having to accept advice like you just haven’t thought to bother to try everything yet. to be fine. And you’re sick of explaining every excruciating detail of your history and meds and procedures and life method like you’re defending your right to make your own decisions like you’re defending that it’s not just ‘YOUR FAULT’ that you’re sick, it must be YOUR FAULT Hey — Have you tried: ? you must not have thought of that yet. I’m fine is because you need me to be Because I am TOO SICK ALL THE TIME to deal with your hurt feelings when you can’t fix me. I’m fine <u>for you</u> So I don’t hurt your feelings by my feelings getting hurt when I can’t just me honest that I. AM. NOT. FINE. without that being a crisis for you. Without you needing to come up with a solution right then and there to make me all better like I don’t know how to eat veggies exercise [not **** myself] try CBD meditate take time to cry get rest drink more tea [not **** myself] stretch --hey, have you tried CBD? it works for me. And I – don’t want to be rude. And I – hey, I’m here for you So instead of being who I am and owning my try, but getting snippy when you’ve beat me with your good intentions and then feeling guilty and attacked and needing to take MORE time to cry – I – I’m fine.
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Jul 18, 2019
Jul 18, 2019 at 6:46 AM UTC
Fine.
I’m fine is what you start to say when you’re not, but you’re sick of not fine And you don’t want to be a downer And you’re sick of having to accept advice like you just haven’t thought to bother to try everything yet. to be fine. And you’re sick of explaining every excruciating detail of your history and meds and procedures and life method like you’re defending your right to make your own decisions like you’re defending that it’s not just ‘YOUR FAULT’ that you’re sick, it must be YOUR FAULT Hey — Have you tried: ? you must not have thought of that yet. I’m fine is because you need me to be Because I am TOO SICK ALL THE TIME to deal with your hurt feelings when you can’t fix me. I’m fine <u>for you</u> So I don’t hurt your feelings by my feelings getting hurt when I can’t just me honest that I. AM. NOT. FINE. without that being a crisis for you. Without you needing to come up with a solution right then and there to make me all better like I don’t know how to eat veggies exercise [not **** myself] try CBD meditate take time to cry get rest drink more tea [not **** myself] stretch --hey, have you tried CBD? it works for me. And I – don’t want to be rude. And I – hey, I’m here for you So instead of being who I am and owning my try, but getting snippy when you’ve beat me with your good intentions and then feeling guilty and attacked and needing to take MORE time to cry – I – I’m fine.
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NEwaters
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Jul 18, 2019
Jul 18, 2019 at 6:46 AM UTC
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