11/26/2013
I'm beginning
to realize
how alone
I really am
and how
alone,
is what
I've always
been
and honestly,
I think I'm
partly okay
with that
my best mates
have always
been
these walls,
this computer,
and the pages
in every book
I've ever laid
my eyes upon
I've always
found myself
to be quite
lonely
little did
I realize
that I had
everything
I needed
I've found
comfort,
in knowing
that these
pages can
not up and
leave me
they cannot
decide to hate
me
or ban me
from their
pithy lives
they cannot
judge me
or deem me
unsatisfactory
I have found
comfort,
in knowing
that these
walls
can not walk,
and can not think,
and can not judge,
and most
of all,
I have found
comfort
in knowing that
these walls
can not
talk
I've learned,
over the years,
to live
alone,
inside my
own mind,
not to worry
about others
I've learned
to keep to
myself
I've found
things to
keep my
occupied
and most
important
of all,
I've learned
you can not
let your
emotions
and feelings
depend on
those around
you
because they
will fail you
every time,
they will
fail you
you must learn
to live
with yourself,
you must learn
that your mind
is an oasis,
an escape,
a paradise,
that does not
need to
depend on
anyone else,
but yourself
to be happy
© 2013 Scarlet Van Allen
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 4:38 AM UTC
11/26/2013
I'm beginning
to realize
how alone
I really am
and how
alone,
is what
I've always
been
and honestly,
I think I'm
partly okay
with that
my best mates
have always
been
these walls,
this computer,
and the pages
in every book
I've ever laid
my eyes upon
I've always
found myself
to be quite
lonely
little did
I realize
that I had
everything
I needed
I've found
comfort,
in knowing
that these
pages can
not up and
leave me
they cannot
decide to hate
me
or ban me
from their
pithy lives
they cannot
judge me
or deem me
unsatisfactory
I have found
comfort,
in knowing
that these
walls
can not walk,
and can not think,
and can not judge,
and most
of all,
I have found
comfort
in knowing that
these walls
can not
talk
I've learned,
over the years,
to live
alone,
inside my
own mind,
not to worry
about others
I've learned
to keep to
myself
I've found
things to
keep my
occupied
and most
important
of all,
I've learned
you can not
let your
emotions
and feelings
depend on
those around
you
because they
will fail you
every time,
they will
fail you
you must learn
to live
with yourself,
you must learn
that your mind
is an oasis,
an escape,
a paradise,
that does not
need to
depend on
anyone else,
but yourself
to be happy
© 2013 Scarlet Van Allen
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