"because if i find out that i didnt get in and i wasted 19 years of my life, i will literally **** myself"
hearing these words hurt.
because how can you call childhood a waste?
lazy teenage summers, concerts and nights out?
or am i the foolish one?
maybe ill regret it one day
not locking in more in high school
maybe whether or not i go to cambridge WILL determine my life
and whether i achieve anything
but even if we have different goals
i refuse to accept this mindset
my mind recoils at the thought of it
because i know its the school system she grew up in thats speaking these words
and i know its not her
but how do i help?
i dont know what to do
so i just laugh it off, and look concerned
but deep down it hurts
because were just kids
and your teenage years shouldnt determine the rest of your life
and if thats not true
i hate this system for making us feel like it does
May 17
May 17, 2026 at 3:38 PM UTC
"because if i find out that i didnt get in and i wasted 19 years of my life, i will literally **** myself"
hearing these words hurt.
because how can you call childhood a waste?
lazy teenage summers, concerts and nights out?
or am i the foolish one?
maybe ill regret it one day
not locking in more in high school
maybe whether or not i go to cambridge WILL determine my life
and whether i achieve anything
but even if we have different goals
i refuse to accept this mindset
my mind recoils at the thought of it
because i know its the school system she grew up in thats speaking these words
and i know its not her
but how do i help?
i dont know what to do
so i just laugh it off, and look concerned
but deep down it hurts
because were just kids
and your teenage years shouldnt determine the rest of your life
and if thats not true
i hate this system for making us feel like it does
im confused and sad and overwhelmed with things to do
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