i'm mature enough
at least i should be.
to know when to say no,
say i need more time.
this could've worked,
i wanted it to work.
so badly.
if i didn't let thoughts go to my head.
“what if you're alone forever”
i'm against the wall.
i hesitate.
i'm not ready.
but i dug this hole
“yes”
why'd i say that.
i don't know her
is this just an adrenaline rush.?
i like her.
love her i say.
but was it from the right reason?
i don't know her.
i want to.
but,
am i not happy.?
i lose weight.
i flinch more.
tired.
but i can't blame her.
she did nothing wrong.
i want this, i really do.
and
i
said
yes.
i can't say i'm not attracted to her.
because **** well i am,
even now.
but i know it's not the right kind.
not for her, not for me.
but if i could
i'd never have to see her again,
unless she was on top of me.
but i dug this.
i said yes.
and i broke her heart.
i'm sure these words mean nothing.
but. truly,
i am so sorry.
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 8:32 AM UTC
i'm mature enough
at least i should be.
to know when to say no,
say i need more time.
this could've worked,
i wanted it to work.
so badly.
if i didn't let thoughts go to my head.
“what if you're alone forever”
i'm against the wall.
i hesitate.
i'm not ready.
but i dug this hole
“yes”
why'd i say that.
i don't know her
is this just an adrenaline rush.?
i like her.
love her i say.
but was it from the right reason?
i don't know her.
i want to.
but,
am i not happy.?
i lose weight.
i flinch more.
tired.
but i can't blame her.
she did nothing wrong.
i want this, i really do.
and
i
said
yes.
i can't say i'm not attracted to her.
because **** well i am,
even now.
but i know it's not the right kind.
not for her, not for me.
but if i could
i'd never have to see her again,
unless she was on top of me.
but i dug this.
i said yes.
and i broke her heart.
i'm sure these words mean nothing.
but. truly,
i am so sorry.
i dont think she does, but either way she shouldn't forgive me.
