The fool's journey begins
high hopes
head held high
a fresh start, so relieved
you have everything you need.
A new name, a new look,
a locker combination.
You are
ready for this journey.
You're one of the lucky ones-
you find a friend.
a friend who makes you laugh until you cry.
you talk crushes, candy,
crossing your eyes, folding fortune tellers
she loves the same dumb movies you love
you have found your person.
with her, you can be you.
you borrow your first bra
laughing the loudest
you have the most fun.
you stupid fool.
you flew too close to the sun
your laugh is too loud.
your ***** are too big.
shut up and sit down.
A dumb **** they call you
12 years old,
you allowed a boy to kiss you
The kid gloves come off
sharks in the water
they smell the blood.
they're just mean girls.
no. they are sharks
they have teeth
they tear you to shreds.
They are mean and they exclude
they decide who to include
and you, now on the outside
Face pressed against the glass
You are alone.
at school you're alone.
At home
Alone
Mom gone at work
Dad full of rage.
Sister on the phone
once your hero, now annoyed with your existence
The silence of this house is now a piercing scream
shadows in the corners
a ghost in your room.
alone again. sad girl.
scrape at yourself with a safety pin
skipping breakfast and lunch
a quiet call for help
but you're alone
alone alone
your wardrobe now black
a rainbow pin on your bag
Your new look attracts a boy
a coyote boy
a coyote shark wolf boy
he smells the loneliness on you
a wounded animal
he smells the blood
the boy calls you his.
suddenly, you're not alone.
now you're never alone.
you're intoxicated
you love him
(but not the way he pushes)
you love him
(but not the way he guilts you)
you love him
(except when he calls you fat)
you love him
or maybe you don't.
intoxicated by love
a drunk child.
drunk stumbling staggering child
"Where are her parents?"
he says he's sorry
your options are black and white
yes. or no.
be with him
or be alone
and you hate alone.
alone is
voices loud
screaming silence
scraping
You’re ugly
You’re fat
You’re worthless
No one likes you
Stop
it's better to not be alone.
one benign day
a sleepover
Your friend invited him, without telling you
your parents don’t even notice you’re gone
In the middle of the night
You wake up to his slimy teenage body on top of you
The weight like an elephant and you can’t breathe
The lightning strikes the tower
Get off of me
Get off of me
That summer
You have panic attacks in the shower
where are her parents?
Handfuls of pills, choked down with chocolate milk
where are her parents?
innocence of twelve thrown up with the birthday cake
where are her parents?
slicing so deep you could smell the copper
where the **** are her parents?
the call for help
a silent scream
scraped & scarred, battered and bruised,
lightning strikes the tower
wake up in the hospital
the fool
Nov 25, 2025
Nov 25, 2025 at 2:34 PM UTC
The fool's journey begins
high hopes
head held high
a fresh start, so relieved
you have everything you need.
A new name, a new look,
a locker combination.
You are
ready for this journey.
You're one of the lucky ones-
you find a friend.
a friend who makes you laugh until you cry.
you talk crushes, candy,
crossing your eyes, folding fortune tellers
she loves the same dumb movies you love
you have found your person.
with her, you can be you.
you borrow your first bra
laughing the loudest
you have the most fun.
you stupid fool.
you flew too close to the sun
your laugh is too loud.
your ***** are too big.
shut up and sit down.
A dumb **** they call you
12 years old,
you allowed a boy to kiss you
The kid gloves come off
sharks in the water
they smell the blood.
they're just mean girls.
no. they are sharks
they have teeth
they tear you to shreds.
They are mean and they exclude
they decide who to include
and you, now on the outside
Face pressed against the glass
You are alone.
at school you're alone.
At home
Alone
Mom gone at work
Dad full of rage.
Sister on the phone
once your hero, now annoyed with your existence
The silence of this house is now a piercing scream
shadows in the corners
a ghost in your room.
alone again. sad girl.
scrape at yourself with a safety pin
skipping breakfast and lunch
a quiet call for help
but you're alone
alone alone
your wardrobe now black
a rainbow pin on your bag
Your new look attracts a boy
a coyote boy
a coyote shark wolf boy
he smells the loneliness on you
a wounded animal
he smells the blood
the boy calls you his.
suddenly, you're not alone.
now you're never alone.
you're intoxicated
you love him
(but not the way he pushes)
you love him
(but not the way he guilts you)
you love him
(except when he calls you fat)
you love him
or maybe you don't.
intoxicated by love
a drunk child.
drunk stumbling staggering child
"Where are her parents?"
he says he's sorry
your options are black and white
yes. or no.
be with him
or be alone
and you hate alone.
alone is
voices loud
screaming silence
scraping
You’re ugly
You’re fat
You’re worthless
No one likes you
Stop
it's better to not be alone.
one benign day
a sleepover
Your friend invited him, without telling you
your parents don’t even notice you’re gone
In the middle of the night
You wake up to his slimy teenage body on top of you
The weight like an elephant and you can’t breathe
The lightning strikes the tower
Get off of me
Get off of me
That summer
You have panic attacks in the shower
where are her parents?
Handfuls of pills, choked down with chocolate milk
where are her parents?
innocence of twelve thrown up with the birthday cake
where are her parents?
slicing so deep you could smell the copper
where the **** are her parents?
the call for help
a silent scream
scraped & scarred, battered and bruised,
lightning strikes the tower
wake up in the hospital
the fool
identity vs. role confusion
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