i don't completely understand alcohol
why it brings out this goofiness
and this emotion from me
why do i pour everything out
and feel comfortable with complete strangers
why can't i be like this sober
why do i feel i am judged by everyone i meet
and encounter
there are so many beautiful people
with so many beautiful pasts
yet i am so afraid to show them mine
because there are dark secrets
that even i keep from my lover
for i do not want someone to judge me
for my "sins" i have committed
i am trying so hard to be good again
that i let my young past poison everything
i am afraid of wrong-doers
and imperfect people
because i know that i **** up too
and i'm too afraid of someone hitting me again
i will not let 1 fist touch my porcelain skin
for it is both pale and fragile
the visible veins not only carry the life within me
but carry secrets that i have told no one
and i'm sorry
but i have no time to deal with people like me
because no one should deal with people like me
May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 3:48 AM UTC
i don't completely understand alcohol
why it brings out this goofiness
and this emotion from me
why do i pour everything out
and feel comfortable with complete strangers
why can't i be like this sober
why do i feel i am judged by everyone i meet
and encounter
there are so many beautiful people
with so many beautiful pasts
yet i am so afraid to show them mine
because there are dark secrets
that even i keep from my lover
for i do not want someone to judge me
for my "sins" i have committed
i am trying so hard to be good again
that i let my young past poison everything
i am afraid of wrong-doers
and imperfect people
because i know that i **** up too
and i'm too afraid of someone hitting me again
i will not let 1 fist touch my porcelain skin
for it is both pale and fragile
the visible veins not only carry the life within me
but carry secrets that i have told no one
and i'm sorry
but i have no time to deal with people like me
because no one should deal with people like me
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