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Change is inevitable So why hold onto what we have to let go of As a teen people would say I was so mature for my age... if only they knew it was the trauma that made me grow up fast At the age of 8, I was forced to grow up for my body was already developing faster then the other girls I was sexualized at a young age I grew up hating my body Causing me to view my body image in distorted images Ever since then, my body has been in survival mode For so long I was angry at my abuser Unconsciously I never wanted to be around him, never wanted to be in such close reach again Eventually my anger and the resentment I felt towards him was slowly bruising my heart Corrupting my soul from the inside, turning my heart to black I was damaging myself in the process of hating my abuser So I decided to forgive him not for him but for me because no matter how hard we wish for a different outcome Life is not a wish factory, no machine exists to rewind time I forgave him because If I wouldn’t have the truth would have been too much to handle It would’ve eventually driven me mad sending me spiraling down the rabbit hole Into oblivious
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Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 4:53 AM UTC
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Change is inevitable So why hold onto what we have to let go of As a teen people would say I was so mature for my age... if only they knew it was the trauma that made me grow up fast At the age of 8, I was forced to grow up for my body was already developing faster then the other girls I was sexualized at a young age I grew up hating my body Causing me to view my body image in distorted images Ever since then, my body has been in survival mode For so long I was angry at my abuser Unconsciously I never wanted to be around him, never wanted to be in such close reach again Eventually my anger and the resentment I felt towards him was slowly bruising my heart Corrupting my soul from the inside, turning my heart to black I was damaging myself in the process of hating my abuser So I decided to forgive him not for him but for me because no matter how hard we wish for a different outcome Life is not a wish factory, no machine exists to rewind time I forgave him because If I wouldn’t have the truth would have been too much to handle It would’ve eventually driven me mad sending me spiraling down the rabbit hole Into oblivious
#forgiveness#childhood#trauma
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Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 4:53 AM UTC
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