So sad it had to be this way
She forgot all the good thing about him
She let them slip away
Before this she was content with her life
Yet today she decided that tomorrow couldn’t wait
Been living in a shell for far too long
That’s when she came into her powers
When she finally acknowledged her worth and didn’t settle for anything less bc she knows what she has to offer
In the end she’s 1 of 1 and she knows it
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 11:01 PM UTC
Change is inevitable
So why hold onto what we have to let go of
As a teen people would say I was so mature for my age... if only they knew it was the trauma that made me grow up fast
At the age of 8, I was forced to grow up for my body was already developing faster then the other girls
I was sexualized at a young age
I grew up hating my body
Causing me to view my body image in distorted images
Ever since then, my body has been in survival mode
For so long I was angry at my abuser
Unconsciously I never wanted to be around him, never wanted to be in such close reach again
Eventually my anger and the resentment I felt towards him was slowly bruising my heart
Corrupting my soul from the inside, turning my heart to black
I was damaging myself in the process of hating my abuser
So I decided to forgive him
not for him but for me because no matter how hard we wish for a different outcome
Life is not a wish factory, no machine exists to rewind time
I forgave him because If I wouldn’t have the truth would have been too much to handle
It would’ve eventually driven me mad
sending me spiraling down the rabbit hole
Into oblivious
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 4:53 AM UTC
You are long gone
Emptiness is what remains
Living a life with out you in it
I used to cry you a river
I would have taken a bullet for you
Real definition of a ride or die
We were different creatures who crossed paths coincidently because in reality we wouldn’t have
We were like parallel lines
never to intersect
Yet the only time we did intersect is when you crossed my mind
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 4:22 AM UTC
My heart aches 4 you
Aches for your return
You’ve been running through my mind
You’re trapped
There you are haunting me, trying my best to escape you
The only way to make it stop is that line
One sniff
Two
But even then its not enough because you remain there
Haunting me
Taunting me
Reminding me of what we could have been
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 4:14 AM UTC
The thing therapists don't tell you after you've "recovered" is that you'll have good day and bad days which will mostly consists of bad days. They fail to mention that because when you're in therapy it's all about progress.
"Don't say this you'll trigger her..."
The truth is, some days will be harder then others. You'll want to relapse and self destruct because all of that is familiar. You'll want the antidepressant pills again because life is hard again. Life is how you swore it would never be like again yet you're there again. You've spent the majority of you're time feeling this so you crave familiarity.
Some days you will not want to get out of bed because the sick truth is you don't want to get better. You've already made you're life around your illness. Sometimes you'll just want the world to stop for a moment so you can realize that's false. The illness is bittersweet feeling because in the back of your head you want to get better. You want a cure for the illness but then again you crave something that's familiar and close to home.
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 1:44 AM UTC
Women aren't defined by their beauty. Woman are strong! And a woman can equally do the same things a man can do. Woman have evolved from following the idea of cult of domesticity and fearing to speak out but today we can be anything we set our minds too. Today is the day where we put an end to being quiet even when we know the answer like we were trained to. Today is the day where we compliment each others body before questioning our own beauty. Instead of body shaming we should embrace the fact that all women are different. Women shouldn't be afraid to wear anything because women are not property. As a society we shouldn't blame women for getting **** because we wore "something revealing". Instead we should all raise men and women the same !
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 1:37 AM UTC
I hated thinking of him because it made me feel.
Feel something I was never meant to feel
Something I couldn't understand or act upon
It was pointless, really, as were feelings all together
Dec 5, 2015
Dec 5, 2015 at 4:54 AM UTC
What if it's so far from being okay?
What if it's never going to be okay?
They have never felt the pain you had to endure because we all feel differently.
Humans are odd creatures
We break and we try to fix but if we can't fix we throw away
But there are some situations that you simply can't throw away you just have to pick it up.
Dec 5, 2015
Dec 5, 2015 at 4:52 AM UTC
when he left I was devastated
I was too in love to let him go but he left regardless
he fixed me but when he left I knew that I couldn't fix him
he's been gone for over 7 months now and yet it all feels like yesterday
the ache in my heart remains the same
and I occasionally shed some tears
I couldn't listen to his band music
because they brought way too much memories
but no matter how much I made it about myself
it was never my place to be upset with him because in the end it was his decision to leave
not mine, not anyone, and certainly not his band mates
he was the love of my life but he's long gone now
goodbye zayn malik
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 3:58 AM UTC
Sometimes I feel trapped in this life.
I feel trapped in this body and this mind
and I don't know how anyone can go feeling like this
How can anyone be expected to on like this?
I understand school is important but then again there is that huge
difference between a healthy amount of challenge in order to succeed
and then being so stressed about school that you break down and cry
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 3:40 AM UTC