I never wrote about it.
I don't like to remember.
And few people know.
But I want people to know the story.
---------------------------------------
I was depressed.
My dad and his sexism towards me,
My moms screams over every little thing.
Everything seemed to be turned against me.
I wanted to end it all.
Death by asphyxiation.
Tying a bandanna tightly around my neck
And going to sleep.
I was sure it would work.
I tied it pretty tightly and all I had to do
Was finish tying the knot.
Three times.
So I couldn't back out.
I almost got to the second loop,
And I heard the beep.
I never read the text.
I just responded with
What I thought was accurate.
And, without my permission,
The knots untied.
And your name was the only thing I saw.
I liked you before then,
But after that, I knew I would grow to love you.
Something told you to text me right then.
Whether it be a selfish reason, or an instinct,
You saved my life.
And now you're a big part of it.
And I hope to the God I don't believe in
That it will, stay that way.
Sep 3, 2013
Sep 3, 2013 at 9:07 PM UTC
I never wrote about it.
I don't like to remember.
And few people know.
But I want people to know the story.
---------------------------------------
I was depressed.
My dad and his sexism towards me,
My moms screams over every little thing.
Everything seemed to be turned against me.
I wanted to end it all.
Death by asphyxiation.
Tying a bandanna tightly around my neck
And going to sleep.
I was sure it would work.
I tied it pretty tightly and all I had to do
Was finish tying the knot.
Three times.
So I couldn't back out.
I almost got to the second loop,
And I heard the beep.
I never read the text.
I just responded with
What I thought was accurate.
And, without my permission,
The knots untied.
And your name was the only thing I saw.
I liked you before then,
But after that, I knew I would grow to love you.
Something told you to text me right then.
Whether it be a selfish reason, or an instinct,
You saved my life.
And now you're a big part of it.
And I hope to the God I don't believe in
That it will, stay that way.
Request permission to use this poem