How do I explain that I smile but have a sad soul? That I'm both brave and shy. That I keep most things to myself but when I decide to let my walls down mu ugliness is too much and uncalculated; just raw and painful. The strength and grace i give to others I can't give to myself because I don't have the training. Quietly, self-soothing but then my insides need help getting back to solid. How do you walk head up, heart strong but silence can break you all at once. They say, "life doesn't happen to you but for you. I don't understand. If your mind is powerful why does mine play tricks on me.
Tell me... how do I need people but then feel ashamed I burden them with unhealed pain. That I don't want them to leave me but love me unconditionally even when I don't love myself. When does my soul match my smile? Tell me how to wipe the invisible tears while trying to stop the uncontrollable ones.
Nov 12, 2025
Nov 12, 2025 at 9:44 PM UTC
How do I explain that I smile but have a sad soul? That I'm both brave and shy. That I keep most things to myself but when I decide to let my walls down mu ugliness is too much and uncalculated; just raw and painful. The strength and grace i give to others I can't give to myself because I don't have the training. Quietly, self-soothing but then my insides need help getting back to solid. How do you walk head up, heart strong but silence can break you all at once. They say, "life doesn't happen to you but for you. I don't understand. If your mind is powerful why does mine play tricks on me.
Tell me... how do I need people but then feel ashamed I burden them with unhealed pain. That I don't want them to leave me but love me unconditionally even when I don't love myself. When does my soul match my smile? Tell me how to wipe the invisible tears while trying to stop the uncontrollable ones.
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